The nerd and the bad boy

12

Zoey's P.O.V.

It was to bright outside. I got up and saw Logan was still sleeping. I realized I could go and make breakfast for him and see if my mom and dad were home. My dad is supposed to come home today and I'm really excited I know he won't be able to do much and it will take him time to realize what's happening now days but I'm happy.

Honestly lately I been doing good. I'm about a week clean and I haven't thought about breaking it. I think Logan is really helping me. I know I should of learned to love myself before I loved him but I think loving him has actually helped me to love myself.

I got out of my bed and walked downstairs. I saw a note sitting on the kitchen table. I grabbed it and read it. It was from my mom. It said: Went to hospital to get your father. They have to run a few more tests before he comes home. Be careful and have a great day. Love mom.

Well since it's Sunday it will be an okay day because no school. Ugh I hate school. I don't wen understand the purpose it's such bullshit. It's so miserable. I hate how everyone labels each other it's so damn stupid.

I grab the waffle mix and some bacon and start cooking it. It feels so early in the morning and I miss my bed. I just want to go lay back down with Logan.

All of a sudden everything from last night comes back. I thought my past was really terrible yet so was Logan's. What is really confusing me is how Logan doesn't know about me and Scott.

Scott was so nice when we first met. He showed he cared he was there with me after the accident. I actually believed that he loved me. I know sooner or later I will have to tell Logan but right now I don't think it's the time too.

I finished cooking the food and Logan came downstairs and wrapped his arms around me. I turned around and he had no shirt on. He looked nice with no shirt on.

He whispered in my ear," Good morning, love."

My smile grew really big. I love his voice it's so sexy. Seriously what goes inside my brain. I finally stopped glowing okay not really and I said," Good morning."

He kissed me and thanked me for cooking breakfast and started eating. My mind keep going onto last night. He could of been really hurt.

A gang is after Logan. I don't even know how I'm supposed to deal with this. Am I supposed to worry or be pissed or sad or freaked out honestly I'm kind of all of those.

I'm mostly pissed at myself maybe if we stayed friends his life would not of turned to shit. Maybe this is all my fault. I need to stop blaming myself for everything damnit.

"Hey. I know you are not okay. Love please talk to me."

" It's just hard. I don't even know how I feel. You could of been killed last night. Or a long time ago. I just tried to kill myself. I don't even know. I feel like I'm getting better but then once I'm happy as fuck my mood gets fucked. I am just so scared of losing you. I love you so fucking much Logan. I love y-"

He pulled me closer and kissed me. "Stop thinking like that. I'm not going anywhere. I'm sorry for not telling you sooner I'm sorry. But I promise I am not going anywhere. Wait you love me?"

" I love you so much. Okay I been scared not to say because I didn't know if you felt the same but I don't care because I love you."

" I always loved you. I always wanted you to be mine. It was hard being just friends."

I heard the front door start to open. I hugged Logan even tighter. My dad is finally home. After so many years of hearing my dad would not make it he did. Now he's finally home. My dad is alive and home. He is right where he belongs.

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Hey. I kinda love this chapter is kinda sad but sweet.