Secluded

Lady Bug

Secluded Chapter 23

When I walk into the front door I hang my coat up on the rack and make my way to the kitchen. Doctor Grayson gave me a bag of medications along with a folder with a million papers in it. I even got my first sonogram today which is tucked away in the folder. Everything seems so unreal at the moment and it's hard for me to grasp what is happening. I can't even look at the sonogram without blinking. I sit down at the kitchen table and put my head in my hands and close my eyes and focus on breathing. I don't know what to do. I know Eric needs to know, but I'm afraid. He loves me but does he have the time to be a father? Is he ready? The question is, am I ready? I start sobbing and lay my head down on the table wishing I had my mom to help me. I need to find a way to get to abnegation soon. Tomorrow morning I leave for Dauntless for the day to attend a mandatory leader meeting. Whatever that was. You could say it's technically my first day of work.

I drag myself upstairs to pack a small bag and toss my medication along with it. I pull my hair into a messy bun and walk into the bathroom to brush my teeth before bed and wash my face. I glance at myself in the long mirror on the other side of the bathroom and I wonder if there is a noticeable bump on my stomach. The doctor said I'm around six weeks so I won't show for a while. I pull my shirt up and run a hand over my flat stomach. My hands shaking from the nerves I feel. I think if there was a bump id be freaking out even more. Everything's going to change now, I feel it. Feeling overwhelmed I turn around to check myself out in the mirror above the sink. I really need a haircut. I remember my mother always cutting my hair and it made me feel relaxed. I find the scissors in the medicine cabinet and take the hair tie out of the messy bun and start cutting. I cut to a few inches above my shoulders. Not too short but not long either. I smile at my reflection, pleased with how well I did it. I guess the Prior women really know how to cut hair. I guess if this leadership job doesn't work out I know where my other skill set is in.

That night I toss and turn until finally falling asleep. I set an alarm on the tablet to wake me early so I don't have any surprises in my house. Who knows, could be Peter who picks me up and I do not want him in this house.

The next morning, I dress in my Dauntless outfit that I wore here and walk downstairs with my bag in hand. I look at the clock and it's almost time for someone to pick me up so I double check the house and let the faucets drip in case it freezes and then close the fireplace hatch. I finish up around the house and that's when I hear a car pull up. My stomach instantly feeling butterflies from nerves and also a little morning sickness. I open the door and lock it and then walk down stairs. Nobody steps out, probably because it's freezing out. I open the back door and see nobody in the seat so I hop in.

I notice someone I haven't met before in the driver's seat and then of course, Peter in the passenger's seat. I roll my eyes. Why does it have to be him?

"Hey sweet cheeks, how's solitude?" he asks smirking

"Better than being around you, that's for sure." I tell him plainly.

"You missing your ray of sunshine roommate at all?" he asks sarcastically

"Everyday" I turn and say quietly. He assumes I don't reply and doesn't bother me the rest of the way there. When we finally arrive, the driver kindly opens the door for me and helps me out. I smile as a thank you and grab my bags. I feel my stomach grumbling and realize I didn't eat this morning. Not eating and these pills may equal upset stomach the doctor told me.

"I'll see you later, thanks for the ride" I tell the driver and walk inside the compound and head straight to the cafeteria. Eric can wait, mama needs food. I walk into the cafeteria and see that there's only a couple people inside. Nobody that looks familiar I note. I pick up a tray and start piling on food. Probably more than one person should eat and that's when I hear him.