Lovely Rita

Suprise

Paul had been in the studio the pat few days working with the band. I hadn't been feeling so great, I was throwing up every morning and felt dizzy now and then. I took the day off and decided I'd get something to take the edge off.

I called Liam, our local dealer and got him to bring by some pot and cocaine , that should be enough to make me feel good. He came inside and gave me everything I'd asked for, I payed him the £50 and he left. That's how easy it was, we usually just used him for pot but Coke was suppose to be really good, so why not.
I rolled a joint and chopped some lines.
After sniffing the powder, my nose stung like a bitch but then it soon stopped , I guess the sting wasn't that bad because I tried it again.
I felt so much better and I just kept smoking and sniffing, all my pains were gone, I felt nothing, and that's how I liked it.

"Hey I'm home " I heard the door slam shut
It was Paul . I missed him
I ran up to him and jumped into his arms almost knocking him down. It was definitely the cocaine.
"Hi honey " I said with a big smile I all of a sudden felt happy.

The things this man did to me.

" hi" he said giving me a quick rough kiss
He walked into the living room and saw what I'd been doing.
"Cocaine?" He asked sounding a litte curious

"Yeah Hun, you should try some it really changes your mood for the better"

And without even thinking he sat down and did two lines.
"Wow, slow down. What's on your mind, what's wrong ?" I asked sitting on his lap.

"It's that fuckin' Jap tart" he said clearly irritated.
"What'd she do?"

"She sat on my bloody amp."
I tried my best to hold my laughter in.

"It's not funny, I can't stand her" he said as he leant down and did another line.
When he came back up he just stared at me.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked
"Your just beautiful, that's all. Are you feeling better?"
"No,but then again I don't know what I feel right now. I'm so high." I replied smiling.

We went upstairs and took a nap
"BRRRIIIIINNNGGG"

The phone woke me up.
I answered it just to make sure it wouldn't wake Paul up, he looked so beautiful asleep.
"Hello."

"Rita " it was Amy

" hi , you called back early we only spoke last week."

"Not even a week just a few days ago but I miss you! is everything ok back home" she asked

"Yeah I guess, I just haven't been feeling well lately. I've been throwing up and feeling dizzy and stuff."
"Sick?" She asked in a way that worried me

"Yeah sick."

"Rita. This is gonna sound stupid but maybe your pregnant."
My body froze
"Haha no way " I fake laughed
"I doubt it"
"Just go to the pharmacy, and get a pregnancy test"
"Look Amy I know you love me but it's just a bug"
"Ok whatever. I have to go now see ya" she said
"Bye"
And that was that

I layed back in bed and Paul was still asleep.
Pregnant?
Me?
No way
I'm not pregnant
And I tried to sleep but I just couldn't .
I slid my clothes on as quietly as I could trying not to wake Paul up.

I walked to the pharmacy just down the road and bought 3 tests. Just incase one was wrong.
I snuck back upstairs back into the bathroom and read the instructions. I did what I had to do and then I heard Paul wake up .
"Rita? " he called
"I'm just in the bathroom" I responded innocently.
I waited for the result to show. When they did I couldn't believe it.
Pregnant .
I'm pregnant.
No way.

I used the other two just to make sure that the first one was right and they all came back the same. Positive.
"Are you alright ?" Paul called
I didn't respond.
I wrapped the tests up in a bag and disposed of them properly.
I left the bathroom and got back intothe bed.
Baby?
I couldnt raise a fucking child.
" what's wrong?" Paul asked
I said nothing I just got up, walked downstairs and left the house, talking a walk to the park where I sat for God knows how long watching people walk by.