Tronnor oneshots.

His Music Still Haunts Me

Connors POV~
I want to be good for him.
I want to see his blue eyes and touch his cool skin. I want to cuddle up next to him while we watch the fault in our stars.
But every fucking time I watch that movie or read that book it kills me inside. The memories flood my mind, taking over my train of thought. Me, reading The Fault in Out Stars to Troye after he had a panic attack or when he broke down in tears. Him laying his beautifully painted nails on my chest as he buries his face into my neck. How his breathing slowed, how his eyelashes fluttered, or how his fingers lightly twitched as he started to fall to sleep.
The thoughts of us after a long night and how we would cuddle on our couch with fluffy blankets and pillows as we watch The Fault in Our stars. Heck we watched that movie so many times I have it memorized.
Sometimes I read it to have the memories flood my mind. So I can have a second of happiness to remember the times I had with the beautiful boy I can't call mine anymore. 
I want to hear the ease of his humming on Saturday morning when he makes us toast and spreads avocado on it as I brew us some coffee.
I want to see him slide around the floor in those wild socks he loves. I want to take him to suburbia, to see the glow in his eyes when he sees the beach.
I want to admire his cute little face he makes when he bites into a food he loves. I want to see the love in his eyes when he sees me.
But I was living in a world of oblivion.
" I can't be broken anymore " I always say.
But some how there is one last bit of me that can be more broken than the last.
Ive been a lost boy in the quiet now for a very long time. No one ever saw
But it's all okay now, Troye is happy.
And I'm now in Heaven

Troyes POV~
I miss him. How can I ever be happy without the boy I still am madly in love with!
He is in Heaven.
HE ISN'T HERE! I CANT SEE HIM OR HUG HIM! I CANT FUCKING SEE HIS BEAUTIFUL EYES OR HIS SWEET SMILE EVERY NIGHT WHEN I CAME HOME! I CANT FUCKING SEE HIM ANYMORE!
This is all my fault.
I'm sorry Connor for not being the person you needed.
I'm sorry.