Is been 2 years now and I'm still the same, the one who was always there for you, the one you used to call at nigth, the one who hang out with our friends and laugh with them because they were my friends also, the one that when you broke up with you...
Hello!!!! Is been years !!!! So here is my update Hope you like it ;)!!!
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Dear Sara...
Two years, six months and twenty five days.
That's how long had been since everything went down. Is not like everything in my life didn't suck before that but that really put the cherry on the top of my wonderful life.
Sometimes I just want to relax, be myself, forget what or how everything crushed down. There are times where I found myself in the same warehouse, in the same forest with damp clothes screaming to that someone to come back and just like always no matter how much I beg, scratch, kick or cry no one is going to save me, not even that one.
In time like those, like this, is when I ask myself if was necessary what it has to be done but just like all those others times, I feel that no, I could do something different, something better find another way have a different ending.
Is raining right now. Like that night.
Everyone in my apartment is stressed up for the upcoming exams. In some aspects is funny because Mary in "all her blonde self glory" (her words) is complaining every minute about how professor Eversome is the meanest man alive with no social life whatsoever cause no person with a heart would put in the exam all about the Roman history, what would mean no go out of her room for a week. At least that's why she would do exactly that but with the slightly change of friend re-run instead of Romans history.
Now if you found that overdramatic, you haven't heard yet what Lor has being doing this last couple of days. She has been mopping around if not in her grumpy state telling why,WHY she cannot see David, how she would make him pay for not call her etc etc etc... All the while a tub of ice cream in her hand watching Friends with Mary.
And then is me, all this week I have been studying. Yes I have seen Rafa and all those time is a remain of that dream. Is not that I'm afraid of Rafa becoming him, no. I'm really sure he is not that kind of man.
And even though, I know he wouldn't do that to me. The memory is still fresh in my mind to trust fully on someone and nights like this make it ten thousand worst.
"Amy, wanna grab some popcorns and watch Friends with us?" ask Mary in my door frame.
"Okay, just let me finish this chapter."
"Cool! You make the popcorns by the way."
"Hey! That is unfair!" I yell at her retraining figure.
"Life is unfair dear Em!"
I don't know if I'm mad or to just laugh it off, well at least that would help me to stop this overthinking that I do in days like this.
I walk to the kitchen and put the popcorn in the microwave while reaching my phone for any messages or lost calls.
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