LoveLetters From The Beginning To The End ||BoyX Boy

Chapter 1: The First Love Letter

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Warnings: mention of past abuse, and suicidal thoughts.

Severus POV

It's the first night back at Hogwarts and everyone seems to be sleep except for me, Severus Snape. I'm out by the court yard sitting down with my knees hugged to my chest. Wishing that the pain that I feel would just go away.

Life isn't fair no matter how much, I wish it was. And life has just dealed me one of its biggest cards, Death.

My mother is Gone. She was taken away from me by death. I tried to protect her from HIM but I failed her.  All the beating have gotten worse and I cannot do anything about them.

Why me? What did I do to make these things happen to me? Why do these things happen to me? Who did I piss off so bad that they made sure that my life is a living hell? And now it's going to be even worse then before.

I miss my mother so much.... but I just can't give up on life, not now. No matter how much I want too. My only reason for living was to protect her, to stop him from hurting her but I failed. I'm so sorry I failed you, Mother.

I stayed there for Merlin knows how many hours. Before I finally decided to go back to the Slytherin's commonroom.

Time skip: Morning

I hardly even got any sleep that night. My dreams were plagued with nightmares of my mothers death and the constant beatings. So when it was time to get ready to head down to the Great Hall my heart was heavy with guilt and pain. And for a moment I didn't even notice the owl that had landed on my shoulder until it nipped my ear.

" You are a very beautiful owl and it seen that you have a letter for me. I wonder who it's from.  No one ever sends me anything." I said as I looked at the beautiful brown owl and took the letter from its beak. And I open it and was surprised by its content. The letter read:

Dear Severus,

I saw you in the hallway last night an hour after curfew. You was sitting on the windowsill looking out into the courtyard. I was just going to walk away when I heard a soft cry. I turned around and looked towards you and I saw tears falling down your cheeks. You tried to wipe them away but they kept on coming. And that's when I saw the bruises and scars that you have on your arms. And the one that you have hidden from everyone that was on your left cheek.

At the moment all that I wanted was to hold you in my arms. And tell you that everything's going to be okay because I'm here for you. I wanted to so badly but I couldn't. You wouldn't have wanted to see me, let alone want me to comfort you. Especially after all the pain that I have caused you for  the last five years. I'm sorry for all the pain that I have caused you. You didn't deserve to be treated the way that I treated you.

I should have talked to you about my feelings for you a long time ago.  But I didnt. I have fallen in love with you Severus Snape. And I kept on denying it and lashed out every time I saw you. Because I thought it was your fault that I was feeling the way I am about you. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. Maybe one day you will forgive.

When I saw those tears running down your cheeks, my heart ached. All that I wanted to do was whip the tears from your beautiful eyes and hold you, kiss you and take you away from the world and the person that had hurt you. And you may not even see me in the flesh but I can be there for you whenever you need me. I'm just one letter away. You're not alone anymore, Severus. I'm here for you and I'll  always will be.

I love everything about you. I love your eyes, smile, smirk, laugh and your snarky attitude. Everything. Your perfect,beautiful,handsome, kind and more. And what's inside our hearts is what counts not what's outside. And I love you inside and out.

Maybe you love me too. But for now, I will keep my distance and admire you from afar.

Sincerely,
your secret admirer

P.S. Write Griffin on any parchment to send me a message. And what ever you write will appear on a charmed parchment that I will keep with me at all times.

I was intrigued by the letter and decided to write a reply. I gave the owl a piece piece of my bacon and watched it fly away. I put the letter away and looked at the other Slytherin's to see if anyone was paying any attention to me. There was a few curious Slytherins but most of them looked away when the saw me looking their way. I got up from my seat and headed towards the owlary.

As I walked into the owlary . I checked everywhere to make sure that I was alone. Last thing I need was for some idiot to try and see what I was writing. Before I started the letter to "Griffin". Once I was done checking. I sat down by one of the windows and started to write.

Griffin,

You are a Gryffindor and you have fallen for a Slytherin interesting. I'm not very happy that you saw what happened last night. My moment of vulnerability. You haven't told anyone that I can tell for no one has teased me about it. And for that I am grateful.

If you must know my mother passed away during the summer. My mother didn't deserve to die so soon. She still had so much life in her. Without her.. I'm lost. I miss her so much. But there's nothing I can do to bring her back. I'll that I can do is remeber all of the good times and move on with my life. But I will never forget her.

Your easy to talk/write to and I don't know why. Thank you for being here for me Griffin. Maybe I will be able to forgive you for what ever you have done to hurt me. I don't know why you love me. But I'm very happy that someone does. Even if I maybe unworthy of their love and Affection. You really shouldn't love someone as weak as me.

I really wish I knew who you are but for now. I will respect your need for secrecy.

Sincerely,
S.S.

When I finished the letter it fade away to appear on different one.  Right into the hands of one James Potter.

A/N: Hey Everyone I hope that you liked/loved the first chapter of Love Letters from the Beginning to End. I would love to know how u feel about this new chapter. Comment and votes always makes me smile.

4/4/17: this was mostly Re-editing and adding a little more details.