Fixing Louis

Chapter 4

Louis P.O.V.

"What?" I ask turning around.

"I can't drive, can you take me to go meet up with the boys at the mall?" She asked.

"Nope." I said walking.

"Why." She asked.

"Cause I don't want to find someone else too." I said slamming the door. In her face.

"You know you are a pain in the bum." She yelled through the door.

About 5 minutes later I heard the door slam and I walked out of the room.

I grabbed my blade and slid it across my arm once... Twice... Three times... Four... Five...six. I set it back in the medicine cabinet and put my wrist under the cold running water making me wince.

I walked to my closet "god." I said looking at all the colorful clothes. I started to take out all the striped shirts and colored pants and about 30 minutes the only colors left in my closet were black, gray, white, and navy blue.

I grabbed all the colorful clothes and walked out of my room and into the cold room next to Jessica's room where I keep Eleanor's stuff. It had all of our pics of each other on the walls and writing on the walls about our love. All her clothes in a stash in the corner. Her hair products and her make up in the bathroom I know it would look like someone lives in this room well she does this is our room.

I set my stuff next to Eleanor's and wrote on the wall.

Hey Eleanor,

I miss you dearly love. I hope you come back real soon hazza brought his annoying little sister to become my babysitter now until she "fixes me".

I wish you didn't leave me alone we had our future planed out and then the crash and the comma and pulling my plug but I woke up at the last second, but you weren't here you were in hospital janitor closet with 26 no 27 pills in your system we almost saved you but you killed my hope our hope. you didn't have faith in me. It wasn't far I was left here to suffer without you here to help me through it.

Come and save me El. I need you my love. I have gone up to six cuts a day now. It's painful but once I got use to it it takes away all of the pain that you left for me. I love you so much El.

Love,

Boobear.