A girl like that (Lesbian)

Girl like that - Part five

I sat on my Sofa with Sam's letter in my hands and read it for what seemed like the hundredth time, I couldn't seem to process the words after all this time of me fighting to be with her I couldn't quite understand that she now wanted to be with me. I knew that we had grown much closer over the past few months since she had split up with Lou but still she hadn't given me any indication of how she was feeling I had no idea, and as strange as it sounded I didn't have a clue what to do. It felt to me as if she just thought that I would go rushing back into her arms, that there was no doubt in her mind that I would want her.

The more I thought about it the more frustrated I became the more I wanted to say no just to spite her so she knew how it felt to be rejected. How dear she think that this would all just be ok, it seemed that she had tipped my world upside down again I had just got used to the idea of us remaining friends, don't get me wrong yes I did still want her but I was fed up of always being so confused by her.

It seemed like I had sat in the same position for hours by the time I stood to get my phone it was dark outside and I still didn't know what to do, what I did know was that I needed a drink. I picked up my phone and called Zara it rang for a short while before she answered 'Hey' I said, 'I wondered if you were up for going out for a few drinks?' there was a short pause before she answered 'Everything ok?' I was slightly taken aback by the question but then I thought that Zara knew that my way of dealing with things was to block them out and drink the joy of having a best friend know you inside out. 'Sure' was my brief response 'Abby?' was all that Zara said 'Ok, Sam wants to get back together' I couldn't have been more shocked when I heard Zara's response, I seemed to be a day full of surprises 'I Know' two simple words sent my world spinning again. I sat in silence I didn't know what to say, what to think this was all becoming a little to much for me I stuttered out the word 'How?' Zara took a deep breath and explained the meeting that she and Clare has with Sam I found myself flopping back down on the Sofa as the information sunk in after a short while I found anger rising within me 'How dare you all discuss me and my life like that, I though you were my friend why did no one say anything to me! What on earth were you thinking' My voice kept rising and I was now shouting down the phone 'Clam down Ab, it wasn't our place to say anything. I don't know what to say I thought you would be happy?' I don't think that I had ever been so frustrated 'What that the three of you sat round taking about how I would just fall over myself if Sam told me to come running' with that I hung up the phone and headed out the front door with some cash in my hand.

There really was only one place to go in our small town and I knew that the walk there would help clear my head I must have looked like a crazy person people were moving out of the way as I approached them it was a 30minute walk at best but I got there in 20. As I walked into the bar I sat down on a bar stool I just wanted to be left alone. It must have been around ten and the bar was starting to get busy, it was filling up with the wide variety of people that the gay scene has to offer and being one of only a few LGBT places in Town I should have thought that it would be busy on a Friday night, there was no way I could get through the night without seeing someone I knew. I sat there downing shot after shot, after awhile it stated to take the edge of things and I began to feel a warm glow though me. In the time that I had been in the bar my phone hadn't stop going off, I had lost count of the number of messages I had from Clare and Zara I pulled my phone out of my pocket as it started to ring again, I saw Sam's name on the caller ID. Oh great I thought I wonder which one of them had the bright idea to tell Sam, I turned my phone off and shoved it back into my pocket. I ordered another shot and a beer, as I was about to pull my money out of my pocket I felt a hand on my shoulder 'I'll get these' I heard a soft voice say. I looked over my shoulder and saw a tall slim girl with short brown hair, she had pale blue eyes and was wearing very tight fitting and low cut jeans with a black vest top. She looked like she worked out I could see the flat plane of her stomach with the definition of muscle. I smiled and nodded at her rising my beer in thanks, she pulled up the stool next to me and extended her hand out to me 'Donna' I took her hand in my own 'Abby' I replied. So smiled at me as if trying to open a conversation I drank my shot and chased it with my beer 'Bad day' she asked 'Something like that' I replied.

She looked into my eyes 'Not a big talker?' I Sighed 'Not today' Simple but to the point I didn't ask her to buy my drinks I just wanted to be left alone.

'Fancy a dance then' she stood up and extended her hand out to me again, I'm not sure why but I reached out for it and again took her hand in mine she lead me up the stairs to the club there and on to the dance floor. I was starting to feel the affects of the alcohol and I felt unsteady on my feet. She must have noticed as she pulled me close to her our bodies touching and wrapped her arms around my waist. It felt nice to have that kind of contact again to be in someone's arms and it was clear that she liked me I wasn't second guessing what she was thinking. We spend a long time on the dance floor slowly moving with each other I began to feel shock waves run through me were her hands were. I pulled away and headed to the bar to get some space, I stumbled on my way I had drank a lot that evening, I reached the bar and ordered us some drinks. I knew that I didn't need any more but I was past the point of caring I downed my shot and excused my self to go to the bathroom. I walked into the stall and felt the door push back at me as I went to close it; Donna walked in and before I got a word out her lips were on mine her hands all over me. I didn't respond at first then I felt her teeth nip at my lower lip and I heard a moan escape me I was taken back by the sound but the need within me grew I needed this I wanted to be wanted. My hands sunk into her hair and I pulled her closer to me the full length of our bodies touching. I felt her hands pulling at my clothing but I didn't feel rushed I just wanted more, I was driven on by lust and I wanted to feel her. My hands seem to move on there own and I found myself reaching out for the buttons of her jeans as my lips left her I began to trail my teeth along her neck, I knew that I was being rough but I didn't care, her hands push me harder in to the wall as if sensing the need in me she reached for my belt, I knew that what was happening was wrong I was not this person but it was so uncomplicated i was past the point of caring. Her breathing was heavy, there was nothing kind or loving about my actions or touch it was just need. I held on to her as we pushed each other over the edge I clung to her while my breathing clamed down then pulled her lips to mine I smiled as she kissed me and broke away so we could fix our clothing 'Drink' I asked as she followed me out of the bathroom. I knew it was all wrong I knew it was a stupid mistake and I had no feelings for this girl but i pushed it all to the back of my mind and let my self feel wanted for one evening at least.

The night continued with more alcohol and Donna and I dancing with our bodies so close together grinding into one another at some point it all became a blur. I don't recall the night ending but I knew I wasn't in my bed when I woke up.

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