Fallen Angels

chapter five

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Paris's pov

Usually it wasn't hard to kick people out of my life. I didn't want friends to be tied to me emotionally. The less people in my life, the better it is for me and them.

This was what I been continuously telling myself since I told Keval that I didn't want anything to do with him.

It might have seemed cold and harsh but it was for reasons listed above. I felt a mixture of emotions at the moment but there was one thing that kept eating at my mind.

We almost kissed! Even if I wanted to hold on to him for the time being, to feel what it felt like to have friends but it was just too much when I realized what he was about to do.

Don't get me wrong. He did take me home and everything but if I didn't want friends would I want a boyfriend?psssh.

I could feel a headache coming on so I went to my welcoming bed to lie down. My headache didn't subsided because I continued thinking.

I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard the front door open and close. I'm sure it's one of my sisters but I went downstairs anyway.

I went straight to the living room and saw Xavier, Aiden and much to my unfortune, Crissy. Just as I was about to sneak back upstairs, I heard them talking and stopped dead in my tracks when I heard my name.

“so......uh Crissy, how are things with you and your mom?, Aiden asked.

Why was he asking about mom? He was probably being a loving boyfriend.

“haven't heard from her. She way too busy running away from what's left of the family", Crissy answered with venom lacing each word.

“just be patient. She needs time to heal. You know as the older one, you should be strong for them."

I was shocked to hear that coming from Aiden. Maybe he wasn't such a pretty face after all.

“STOP TALKING ABOUT HER! she's just like Paris. She tries her best to about to avoid the people around her and push them away. They both don't care about the people around them.", I heard Crissy explode.

I couldn't take it any longer. I had to set things straight with her. I had no idea she felt this way. I judged her and thought she blamed dad's death on me. But I was wrong.

“that's not true", they were all shocked that I heard there conversation. I ignored the surprised looks and continued.

“you think it easy for me? It's not easy knowing that you don't have any friends. It is not easy when people judge you without even trying to know you.", I was on the verge of tears now but I couldn't care less.

“Crissy, every night, I'm afraid to go to bed because I know I'm gonna have a nightmare about dad. I cry every night because my own mother is running away from me and every morning I wake up I try to commit suicide.", they all looked at me with tear filled eyes. Even Xavier looked like he was about to cry.

This was what I was afraid of-the pitiful stares. I got them all the time when dad died. Everywhere I went people would start to whisper and give me those stares.

I couldn't take it anymore. I quickly turned away from them and retrieved up stairs. When I reached in the safety of my room, I shut the door without bothering to lock it because I knew no one would chase me.

A few minutes later, after crying my sadness quickly turned into hurt and anger. How could she? After everything I sacrificed to keep them safe this is what she thought about me.

I was so consumed in my thoughts that I didn't hear someone come in. As I turned around, I saw Xavier standing there with a blank expression on his face. Before I knew it, she gave me a warm embrace.

It took me by surprise how I immediately melted in his arms and cried like there was no tomorrow.