LAPIS LAZULI
we were alone, i don't remember where or when, when you told me you loved me.
my breath hitched in my throat, my eyebrows furrowed and i made the mistake of laughing.
god, i laughed at you. i was just so caught off-guard. i thought you were joking. were you not joking?
you told me you wouldn't say it again, but that you wanted me to know.
two weeks later, you started dating a tall Japanese-American girl named Lucille. you said she reminded you of everything that was innocent in the world.
i scratched your name into the windowsill by my bed with my fingernails when i couldn't sleep.
