Forbidden Love: We Crave What We Can't Have

Clearing Up The Air

I woke up in a hospital bed hooked up to some machines and a mask on my face to help my breathing. I looked over to see my dad on the phone. At first I thought it was a business call, but as I listened I can tell it wasn't.

"Look it was a mistake. I need you to see her, she's in a hospital bed because of what happened. I didn't think it would end up like this. I just wanted to protect her from what me and her mother had to go through.........just get here," I over heard him say. He hung up and turned around.

"You're awake. I thought I almost lost my baby girl. I'm gonna get the doctor," he said brushing my hair back with his hand smiling.

"No, no doctors, not yet anyway. How long have I been out," I asked my mouth dry and voice weak.

"About a week."

"Where's mom?"

"She went to get your brother, she'll be back."

"Ok.Oh and dad i'm so sorry about how I acted. It's just that I really did fall for him deeply. It felt real for me. It was like it was just me and him against the world. I thought as long as it was just us we didn't need anyone else. We were each others escape from pain, hurt, and life period."

He looked down as if he regretted every decision he made but he straightened up his act quickly and said,"It's okay baby. I understand." 

That's when my mom and brother walked in. "Your up," my mom exclaimed. I smiled, but i didn't say anything. For a quick minute it felt as if time stopped and I got a warm feeling. Like everything was going to be okay. Everyone was happy and together. My parents were laughing and my brother was joking around. We were one small happy family. Then there was a knock at the door and the moment stopped.

"Come in," my father said still smiling. Then walked in Lonnie with white roses in his hand. Everyone's smile was gone in an instint.  

"Hey V bunny," he said walking in. Of course I didn't respond and just looked away.

"Come on you guys let's give them some privacy," my dad said walking everyone one out.

"What are you doing here," I asked as soon as everyone left.

"Because I was worried," he said sitting the flowers down and sitting down on the chair next to the bed.

"Well i'm fine as you can see. Now you can leave."

"I can't do that V."

"My name is Victoria."

"So we're back to Victoria. Okay then Victoria I can't leave not with us in this predicament."

"And why is that?"

"Because I love you and it was a mistake for me to let you go. I realize that now."

"It took me to almost die for you to realize that?"

"Your dad told me that I was ruining your life and eventually one day I was going to hurt both of us. And I love you too much to hurt and ruin you."

"You took his money! If you really cared then you wouldn't have taken his money! Then you leave me after you fuck me! How does that make you look?!"

"I didn't take anything! Your dad just said that to upset you and make me out to be the bad guy, but I didn't take anyone's money. And I didn't mean to make it seem like it was a hit and pass because it was more then that,"he said with his eyes watering up.

"But at the end of the day that's my decision to make. Not yours or my father's."

"I know and i'm sorry."

"Is that all? You can leave now."

"No, i'm not leaving Victoria. I love you. Look me in my eyes right now and tell me you don't love me then I will leave."

"Fine then,"I turned to him and looked him in his eyes,"I....I don't...I don't love you anymore."

"I don't want your heart anymore neither ,"I said. He looked down at the key i threw at him when we broke up, sat it on the table,  and then looked back up at me. His expression was unbearable. Lord knows I was still in love with him. With every inch of me  I loved him. I just didn't want to be hurt again.

"Looks like you made it clear. Fine, I'll leave then,"he said walking towards the door with his head down. I turned back around to face the window. Then he said, "I'm sorry, i mean it."

That's when I heard the door shut. I couldn't believe I kicked the only guy I really loved to the curve. After all that we been through together I just let him, go just like that. Tears started to run down my face the more I thought about it. Then there was another knock at the door. 

"If it's you Lonnie then please just leave,"I said.

"It's me sweet heart,"my dad said.

"Oh come in,"I said getting up and wiping my tears. He came in, sat down at my side, and put his arm around me. I laid my head on his chest and busted into tears.

"I had to dad. I didn't want to be hurt again, not anymore. I just want to go home," I cried.

"Shhhh, it's okay. You did what you felt was right. It'll get better baby, i promise,"he said rubbing my shoulders. I sniffled and nodded my head yes. 

"Hey, your doctor said they are going to run a few test and if everything comes out okay then we can go home alright," he said. I looked up at him and said, "Okay."

He kissed my forehead and rubbed my shoulder once again. "Thanks dad," I sniffled. 

"You're welcome princess," he said hugging me. 

Ricky in the MM.