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  A/N:  This one isn't from the Internet. I made this one.   

            Dear mum and dad,

               Im sorry.

             
Im sorry for not being smart enough.
            
Im sorry for being deslexic.

Im sorry for not being skinny enough.
              
Im sorry for being fat.
             
Im sorry for being a embarrassment.

Im sorry for liking both genders.

Im sorry for being ugly.

Im sorry for being alive.

Im trying tho.

Im trying to be smart enough by staying after school everyday.

Im trying to loose weight by skipping meals and throwing up my food on the rare times that I eat.

I don't really know what to do about me being bisexual. My crush is angry with me because I've been ignoring her because I'm hoping that if i ignore her then i relies that im straight. It didn't work and we got into a fight and it ended with her saying that she hates me and she wonders why we even were friends.

I've been putting on eyeliner and lipstick and other types of make up, hopeing that it hides my ugly face.

I guess people in my old school hates me because they always told me everyday and even though im in a new school i steal hear my bullys voices in my head. Like if i think if a guy or a girl is cute i have this reminder in my head telling me that why would a hot person like a fat, ugly, stupid girl like you. And there right.

Your life would be alot easier with me gone.

        Love,
                   Your useless excuse for a daughter.

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