Hello, it has come to my attention that people are commenting that they want to start cutting to help with the pain and others telling them to do it if it helps and to not listen to the people telling them to stop. I'm not going to call out names cause I don't want to be that bitch.
I get that it helps. My legs used to be so ugly because the only thing you can see was the angry red lines. It's an addiction and not a healthy addiction. Most addictions are not healthy.
All because it helps doesn't mean that you should do it. People have accidentally killed themself by cutting a vein. Depressed people who don't want to die have died of blood loss. And once you cut a vein you're gone. Cutting is one of the most dangerous ways of copping.
I've dealt with cutting for so long. I've stopped but I still have urges to hurt myself. I punch my head over and over again until I have a big fucking headache. I punch my legs yesterday and last week till it became completely black and blue. When you think about it you get scared of the pain but once you start hurting yourself that's fear goes away and you don't want to stop because you got so much pint frustration and your depression is spiraling out of control and so you take it out on urself. At least that's how it is for me.
People do it for different reasons but that doesn't make it right. I'm trying to work on myself. I'm still trying hard to find a healthier coping mechanism.
So if you don't want an addiction that can last you years to stop and if you don't want to risk bleeding out and cutting a vein then don't do it. If ur thinking about going to it then don't.
I started and I regret it so much and I'm in tears right now because those comments were getting to me you know. I don't know any of you but if I can stop someone from harming themself then I did my job in this book.
I started Wattpad in 2010...i think. I made this account in 2015. I started harming myself in 2012. At first, I was just snapping my writs with a rubber band but I wanted to feel a stronger pain so I picked a razor. I've been dealing with self-harm since I was 10...im 19 now so when I say this addiction is fucking hard to stop I mean it. please if you haven't started then don't start. If you already harm yourself. I hope one day that you permanently stop before something bad happens. I hope all of you get better.
Have a wonderful day or night.
