Don't you feel like your a burden to everyone? Even when they say that they love you and that u can talk to them no matter what and you still feel like you annoy everyone?
I feel like that even when writing this. Like I'm probably annoying all my readers with my once in a while life updates and news of a story or soon to be updated chapter but it doesn't happen cause I lose motivation and my depression kicks my ass.
I feel like that when my friend at college pays for all my meals outside of campus bc I spend all my money that I get monthly on my tuition so I don't have any for myself. She says that I don't have to pay her back bc I'm her college bestie but I feel like it annoys her.
I feel like my problems. My depression, anxiety, my constant migraines, complaints of joint pains annoy my family. I get also a lot of anxiety telling people when I'm in pain because my ex-abusive girlfriend would always make it clear that she didn't give a fuck when I was In physical or emotional pain (I was with her for a year and a half.) so I kept pushing myself thinking that I was just being overdramatic. Eventually, I ignored it too long and I ended up in the hospital after a tack meets for a fractured tail bone. Turns out that fall that I had weeks before did more damage than I thought. Even after that, She didn't give a fuck. It was my first relationship I didn't know what to do or that It was even a toxic/abusive relationship( she did a lot more than not giving a fuck. She would also verbally bully me. Always put me down) till my best friend knocked some sense into me. Since then I became afraid to tell anyone about any physical or emotional pain.
I feel like I annoy my weeb friends when all I talk about is anime which is why I hesitate to talk to them.
Don't you just feel like ur annoying to everyone?
Another thing. If ur friend is telling you something important. Listen. They don't want sympathy...depending on the situation. But most of the time they just want someone to listen or to tell them what to do or to know that it's okay to rely on you. Their not seeking attention. They just want to be heard.
