I Belong Here

Bolder

She messages them but no one replies.
Her head reeling with daily lies.
" YOURE FINE! YOU HAVE NO REASON TO FEEL LIKE THIS!
"NO!" SHE ARGUES "I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS"
She tries again but no one answers.
Keeps attempting to call. With no chances.
Copy and pastes the pre written note from a secret folder.
"I am sorry that this message ain't bolder.
I keep trying to help myself get along the road.
But I can't keep heaving this heavy load.
I know its not fair but you didn't answer.
Remember the promise that I made ya swear to.
I've been holding myself down from this for far to long.
These feeling are now far to strong.
I wanted to speak up, but without all the questions.
And I never wanted denied permission.
I've gotten no hope through wishing.
Believe me I tried it every night before sleeping.
Crying doesn't help but only with convincing.
That it is time to go, I am done with weeping.
I wrote this note just in case it ever came to this.
Obviously it did because you're reading it.
Don't ask your self if you did any thing.
It was a whole lot of stuff that took over and became King.
It was them who told me to keep my mouth shut.
And all those people who caled me a sl*t.
It was him for being so blind about me.
A jewel in the rough he couldn't see.
The teachers giving me a hard time when I was trying my best.
They're only a few reasons why I put my self at rest.
Already I feel at ease.
But don't worry about me please.
These are my last words and I sent them to you.
And I also sent them him too.
You are the reason I hung around for so long.
I just had to make sure you could get on.
I need someone to hug me and hold me tight.
But then again she'll be there to welcome me through the light.
Listen to the silence as she screams my name.
No one yet everyone is to blame.
I love you more than words can describe.
I am sorry that had to say goodbye.
Goodnight.