Way to give me a guilt trip. He poured his heart out to me, told me that he loves me and wants me to love him. Said he understands if I can't love him back, because of his cancer or whatever. How in the world am I supposed to respond to that? I can't very well just turn down a boy who's dying anyway, can I?
No.
I shouldn't have done what I did... I wouldn't be hurting like I am now. But that's not important. What's important is what I did...
Dear A.S.M,
I... I'm not really sure what to say. I knew you "loved" me but I honestly didn't think anything was like... real... now I know that it is. I can't say that I love you back. I mean, you seem really amazing and I would love to get to know you through these letters... but I've gotta give my feelings some time to figure themselves out. I'm not sure what my parents would say about me visiting a boy who I don't even know, who not only lives on the other side of the country, but is dying of cancer as well. Sorry... that probably seemed harsh. I'm just not sure what to do with you! My life is totally normal and then all of a sudden I receive this letter from a dying boy who says he loves me and only wants me to love him back. I didn't ask for any of this! I didn't ask for these feelings that swirl around inside me, each begging for my attention. I didn't ask for you, A.S.M. Please don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that I haven't enjoyed the attention, your letters, and getting to know you. I have. What I didn't ask for was the feelings that came with it. I suddenly have these feelings for you and I don't even know what they are! It's not love, that's for sure... but it's also not pity. I'm past that. I think... A.S.M, (About that, I would really really REALLY like to know your name... you know mine.) I don't know what to think anymore... I'm going to send this letter but I really need some time to think... I'm not going to stop you from writing me letters, but I'm not sure when I'll be able to write you again...
I'm sorry...
Yours,
Drew
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But the Greatest of These is Love
Roman d'amourA young cancer patient falls in love with Drew, who lives halfway across the country. Through his love letters, she gradually begins to fall in love with him. But is it only pity that causes her emotions?
