Falling Apart

Chapter Two.

Amy.
I remember seeing Eve by her locker that first day of school a few years back. At that time she seemed happy enough. Hanging out with a girl called Kacey Sullivan. But two years after that things changed tremendously.... For both Eve and I.

That year, which was about three years ago now, Kacey Sullivan moved to Australia, basically the other side of the world. Eve's parents got divorced and her mother got engaged to Peter Jameson, aka Kayla Jameson's aka queen bee's dad.

That same year a new girl moved to our school from Washington, like the state, not DC. Anyway, at that time I was considered one of the 'popular' girls. Kayla Jameson, Hayley Burke and me, Amelia Kelly. Back to the story. When I walked into school a few days after the new year had started and the new girl had started school here I knew that something was up.

I had always been the most intelligent out of the group of my friends, but even a slug could see the change.

Not long after that day, about two or three months, Hayley and Kayla abandoned me and befriended the new girl, Layla Hennesy. They didn't even say goodbye. Kayla just came up to me and started using every thing that I'd ever trusted her with, every secret, every worry, every trouble, against me.

That day had been one of the worst days of my life. Not only had I lost my two best friends but I had been reminded of everything bad that had ever happened in my life. Confused, upset and angry, I made my way to a corner in the schools library. And that was when I had my first attack.

I felt like my throat was being squashed. Every sound and sight seemed distant, as if they weren't actually there. My hands and legs were quivering and shaking. I felt sick, but none of these things were the worst. The worst thing was that I felt like I was going mad, losing control.

I closed my eyes and grabbed my knees and started rocking back and forth, praying, even though I was atheist, for this madness to stop. Anyone who would have seen me would have thought that I had gone mad. Thankfully not many people came near the back of the library where I was.

I felt something touch my shoulder and flinched back in surprise. I opened my eyes and saw a familiar girl sitting next to me. "Are you okay?" She asked in a quiet voice.

I smiled slightly but, the symptoms still hadn't subsided. What was happening to me? "Yeah..." I stuttered. "I'm Amelia Kelly," I said. "But you can call me Amy." The girl smiled a little bit. I still couldn't place a finger on her name though.

"I'm Evelyn Brooke..." The girl said and then something clicked in my head.

"Your moms marrying Kayla's dad... Right?" I asked. Not knowing that it was a sore subject for her.

Before she could answer a wave of cold hit me and I almost fell backwards. "What's wrong with me?" I asked. I couldn't stop shaking and everything felt worse than before. I looked at my watch and realized that I had been sitting here over ten minutes before Evelyn had come.

"Your having a panic attack," she said softly, but I could hear some emotion behind her words. "What did Kayla say to you?" She lowered her voice even more at that.

I had heard of panic attacks before, but I'd never thought that I would have one. "Oh," I said, kind of surprised. I wasn't sure whether to tell her what Kayla had said to me or not.... I mean, I barely knew this girl. But all the same something made me want to trust her. I knew that she was one of Kayla's main bully victims, but that's all I knew about her. Finally I decided to tell her the things that Kayla had said. I started to sob halfway through, still upset about the betrayal.

"Its okay," Evelyn said in her quiet voice, before now I'd never actually heard her speak before, I'd actually thought that she was a mute at one point. Her voice was surprisingly sweet. "Your symptoms seem to have stopped," she said, changing the subject.

At first I didn't know what she meant but then I realized that I wasn't shaking anymore and that I was breathing normally again. "Oh," I said again. I guess I wasn't sure what to say. I mean, this girl, was being so nice and helpful towards me and I'd never even spared her a second glance.

Ever since that day Eve, that's what I call Evelyn, and I have hung out everyday. Even though it means that I don't really have any other friends, I didn't really care. Eve was the only friend I needed.

My old friends changed too. Layla taught them loads of tricks on how to look and act cool, Kayla dyed her hair golden blond and Hayley changed her name to Hayla. The three of them basically ruled the school.

I've had a couple more panic attacks since that day, but they haven't been as bad as the first one, Eve has been helping me. But something seems to be going wrong. Eve hasn't been the same for quite awhile. Ever since her mom got married.

I don't know what's wrong but I need to find out. Before its too late.