You Don't Remember Me? (Destiel highschool AU)

White Noise In My Mind

Dean's P.O.V

~Thursday, English~

"Ok, we've done quite a lot of work so do you think you'll need to come round tonight?" I secretly want Cas to say yes, I hate doing all of this work but I get to spend so much time with Cas it's worth it.

"Nah, we don't need to do any more work." Wow, way to break my heart Cas damn. " But I will come round anyway because I like to spend time with you." He looks at me with a cute but slightly smug smile. That little shit, he knew what he was doing.

The bell rings.

"Ok, I'll meet you after school then." I say with a little too much hope in my voice.

"Yeah, after school." Cas says running his hand through his hair.

FUCK WHY IS HE SO HOT. IT MAKES ME SO ANGRY THAT HE IS SO DAMN HOT. I go to my last lesson and all I can think about is Cas with his stupid sex hair and his stupid cute little butt and his fucking ocean deep blue eyes that you could go swimming in.

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I wait for Cas by my car and like always because he isn't exactly on time my heart sinks a little lower as every minute passes. He shows up in the distance holding hands with Hannah. They get close enough so I can see them properly and Hannah starts to make out with Cas again, which of course sucks but she doesn't need to make uncomfortable eye contact with me the whole time, damn. They finally stop kissing and Hannah stops looking at me and fake smiles at Cas if anyone knows a fake smile it's me. I plaster my face with them every day.

Cas starts walking towards me and I can't help but smile when the wind blows up his trench coat. He's such a dork, it's so cute. I don't love him, I am emotionless and I have no feelings. It's so annoying that I have never found a use for feelings but now that Castiel is a part of my life all I want to do it feel things. My train of thought has been stopped because Cas says hi to me and my stomach gets filled with butterflys. Jesus what am I, the main character in a chick flick.

"Hey." Cas says with his usual fuckin cute ass smile on his face.

"Hi." I walk round to my side of the car.

I always am finding myself wanting to talk to Cas every second I am with him. About anything.

"So, how are things going with you and Hannah?"

Cas shrugs "Meh."

"Meh? What the hell does that mean?" I am genuinely confused.

"I don't know, it's weird. She talks about you a lot." I have never spoken to this person before. Why is she talking about me a lot?

"What does she like me or something?" I say with clear disgust in my voice.

"No, the opposite in fact. She really hates you and I have no idea why. She doesn't know I'm bi, she still thinks I'm straight so I don't know why she see's you as such a threat." Cas slaps his hands against his mouth after he said that.

"What, what happened?" He covers his whole face with his hands.

"No one but Annabelle knows I'm bi and I would appreciate it if you didn't tell anyone please."

"What? Why would I tell anyone? And why haven't you told anyone?" He sinks further into the seat and keeps his hands on his face.

"I haven't told anyone because no one needs to know."

"SAME. Yes, someone that gets it."

"Wait, are you bi as well?"

"Not quite, I'm gay, or bi. I don't know and I don't really care because out of everything that's been going on in my life recently my sexuality is the least of my worries." I can feel Cas looking at me but I can't look at him because I'm driving and safety first. Ok, I don't want to crash baby. I would die if that happened.

"Wow, that's smart. I think I should think like that."

We get to my house and Cas face planks onto my couch and groans. Ok, that was super hot and I want that to be my text tone. I pick up Cas' legs, sit down and put them on my legs. I'm not quite sure what to do in this situation.

"You're a good friend Dean." Cas says with a face full of couch. I blush a little.

"Really?"

He turns around and sits up slightly but his legs are still on mine.

"Yeah, you don't question anything I do or say and you like me for me. My other 'friends' like me for who I pretend to be around them. It's not that I'm a whole different person but I'm not Cas, I'm Castiel and until I became friends with you I never realized how boring and draining it is to be 'Castiel'"

"Is that why you're in a down mood."

"Yes and Hannah is a bitch and I feel like you're the only person that cares about me. Not like at all but you care about me in a different way. You care in a way that I don't think anyone else could."

"Ok, well do you wan-" Cas cuts me off.

"Dean, I wanna tell you something but I don't know if I should and I'm scared."

"Cas, you are literately my only friend. Who am I gonna tell."

"I don't know. I just don't want to say it because I don't want it to be true."

"I've been there." I say looking at my feet.

"Ok." He takes a breath "Here goes. Dean, you know that I'm adopted."

"Yeah." I think Cas is about to tell me about his dad. Am I ready?

"Ok so you probably guessed that my dad was a dick and he did some stuff and I don't want to say anymore."

"What were you gonna say?"

"Just stuff, I just want to build up the courage to tell someone what happened to me but I can't even tell you and I want to tell someone but I just can't bring myself to do it." I can see tears in his eyes. I know that whatever Cas' dad did to him it has not gone down well with Cas. I also know that I'm not going to find out tonight.

"Ok, you're giving me a hug right now." Cas sits up really quickly and hugs the shit out of me.

I hug him back as hard as I can, I know that he needs it. It must suck not being able to tell anyone what happened to him. I could but that's only because I'm a whiny bitch.

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Cas P.O.V

When I get home from Dean's I am greeted by the usual Annabelle wanting to know exactly where I was and why I was out.

"Where were you?"

"Out." I go up to my room and at this point, I am happy that Annabelle can read minds because she knows that I don't want to talk to anyone right now.

I take off my pants and leave my boxers and t-shirt on and get into bed. I am not even going to try to sleep because I know I won't be able to because I never can. I have so much on my mind. Hannah is being a bitch and how is it only now that I realize that she is a mean person. She's so horrible in our friend group, she's so controlling. And Dean isn't making any of this easier. I want to tell him what happened to me so badly but I can't bring myself to do it. I can't seem to get anything off my mind at the moment and I kinda feel like I can't breathe. I get my phone off the bedside table and text mum I'm not having dinner. I'd rather stay in my room and want to die for 14 hours.