You Don't Remember Me? (Destiel highschool AU)

Is This How You Flirt???

Cas' P.O.V

Dean takes me home after we spent about two hours talking in the meadow.

"We're here." He says when he stops off at my house.

I look at him and I just want to grab his face and kiss him so bad but everything in my head is telling me not to. He glances from my eyes to my lips and then back to my eyes.

"Bye." I leave the car. I love hanging out with Dean but. I don't really know. It's all very complicated.

When I come in I am greeted by Annabelle, as always.

"Where were you?" She says with what I think is concern in her voice.

"You sound concerned. Are you ok? It's really not like you to care about other people Annabelle." He folds her arms and squints her eyes at me.

"Yes, I know that. But hey, damn, sorry I didn't know I'm not allowed to have feelings."

"Cool, I'm going to my room and please don't follow me."

"I don't know why you try to hide things from me when I can read minds." She yells up the stairs but I don't listen to her.

I slam the door behind me and dump all of my stuff on the floor. I crawl into bed and begin cry like I've been doing for the past week. I don't know what to do because everything in my heart has been telling me to ditch Hannah and just go out with Dean but everything in my head has been telling me to get rid of Dean and keep Hannah, keep pretending to make people happy as it's the most logical thing to do. 

I don't know what to do. It's like a constant war zone in my head all the time. I can never get any peace. I feel like there is no right or wrong answer, which is one of the worst things because if there was just one right answer then it would be easy, just pick the right one. But there isn't and I have to make this decision for myself and I've always been bad at doing that. Yes, Hannah is getting more bitchy but if I stop hanging out with Dean then the bitchiness will stop so she would be a bearable girlfriend again. But do I even love her anymore? Do I love Dean more than Hannah?

 I have to do what would make me most happy. I think that would be...... breaking up with Hannah, but then not going out with Dean. That way I pick no one. I don't think that would be least painful, though. But who cares about least painful. As long as everyone else is happy, that's what my whole life has been like so far anyway so it's not like it's anything new.

~Tuesday, Lunchtime~

I sit in silence listening to the conversation of all of my 'friends' buzz around my head as I try to think of the best way to break up with Hannah, who at the moment is making me uncomfortable because she's sat like half on my lap. I mean what the fuck is that? It's really uncomfortable.

"Hey, honey, I need to talk to you after school." I say quietly to her.

"Ok, where do you wanna meet?"

"I don't know, just for like five minutes after 5th period, it won't take that long."

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"So what did you need to talk to me about?" Hannah has been really nice to me since I told her that I needed to talk to her because she doesn't want me to be mad at her. She is also doing puppy eyes to make her look more innocent which really doesn't suit her.

"Ok, um. I think we should break up. No, we are breaking up." Her face doesn't even hint at sad. She is disgusted and angry.

"WHAT??!! WHY? WHAT DID I DO? NO, THIS WAS DEAN WASN'T IT, I FUCKING KNEW IT."

"No, Hannah, this has nothing to do with Dean or you, for once. It's me, it's what I'm going through." She folds her arms, still fuming.

"So tell me Cas, what are you going through."