You Don't Remember Me? (Destiel highschool AU)

I Need To Start Forgetting

We get home from buying ice-cream and mom instantly comes into the hallway to yell at us.

"What took you so long? Why are you like an hour late?"

"We got ice-cream."

"Great, thanks for telling me Cas." She walks off. What did I do? Thanks for being a salty bitch to make my bad day worse.

"I'm going to go to my room please don't disturb me because summoning Satan takes a lot of concentration."

"You're not allowed to do anymore summoning, Annabelle."

"Yeah, I know. That's why you're not going to tell anyone." She says with a strangely threatening smile walking away.

I go into the kitchen to find out why mom is being so damn salty.

"Mom, why are you being so difficult with me at the moment?" She stops washing up and looks at the wall in front of her and then at me.

"Castiel, you will never understand how precious you are to me. I am not angry. I'm scared. I'm scared that you're drifting away from me. You've stopped telling me things and I'm scared that you're going to or have done something stupid and dangerous and I can't even begin to tell you how much that would hurt me and your dad. We've never talked about what happened to you before we adopted you and I want you to know this because I always think that we're not your real parents so we can't say stuff like that and I just want you so bad to be my child again." I hug my mom.

"You are more of a mother than anyone has ever been to me, same with dad. You are my parents and I love you. I'm not doing anything dangerous. Ok." I pull away because this is going to be a long ass conversation. "Mum, I'm bi. I know you don't care but when I met Dean I started getting feelings for him and it was scary because I was already in a relationship but Hannah started to upset me so I broke up with her. I was so confused because I didn't know what my feelings were, are, for Dean. He kissed me and told me he loved me. I didn't know what to do so I shouted at him. I went to his house on the weekend and he ran away. He won't reply to any of my calls or texts and I don't know where he is and it's just really hard for me to get my head around the idea that I won't get to see him again." Mom pulls me into another hug.

"Cas, I love you no matter what. Thank you for telling me and I understand why that is difficult for you."

"I'm going to go to my room and sleep forever. I love you." I squeeze her and go up to my room. I love sleep so much but it hates me.

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After I drop Annabelle off at school I start to drive to school but something tells me I shouldn't. I go to the meadow that Dean and I went to after our dinner date thing. I text my mom that I didn't go to school and I'm safe. I lay down where we were laying the other day. I look over to where Dean is meant to be. He's not there. He's gone. I wish I could know where he was. Not, even so, I can go and find him, to know he is safe is just enough. I put sad music on because I hate myself. I always want to be sad forever, nothing is good.

That's not true I have a lot of good things in my life but thinking about all the good things just makes me feel selfish that I feel sad all the time. I feel sad because things were starting to get better, I was starting to get better at school and stuff because of Dean and now I'm not even going to school because of Dean and everything is so confusing and scary. I don't like any of what's going on. I just want to forget all about Dean and carry on being the basic white boy was born to be but I can't because I can't forget about Dean. I just can't.

When I get home it's about 12:43 because I'm hungry and I have no money for food. I assume that no one is home so I walk into the kitchen and I see my mom in there pacing.

"You ok?"

"No, I don't know what to do because I know you can't be in school right now because of where you are right now but I hate lying to your school."

"I can go if you really need me to." She stops and looks at me wide-eyed.

"No, I know you can't go to school right now because of Dean and everything that's been going on and... Castiel I think you might get more depressed if you go to school and yes you're not at school but you're out. You went to a meadow or something today and that's outside. You know what I can do this, I can lie for the well-being of my son." She dials the number and puts the phone to her ear.

"Do you want me to hold your hand?" She scowls at me and I laugh a little.

I walk to the fridge and take 3 cheese strings and go up to my room. I open my laptop and try to find Dean's Facebook before I realize he doesn't even have one. Wow, good for him.I don't really see any point in Dean having Facebook, though. But now I have no-one to stalk. Great now I get to still be bored as fuck.