The Story Of Murder & Marriage

6: New Perspective

SOPHIA'S POV

Closing the door behind me I walk to the bed to sit so I can actually think about what I plan to do. It's been about two months of living with Mike and I really appreciate everything he's done for me. Especially what he said today about realizing that he isn't like damien, he isn't going to become damien and I should accept that. I should be happy that I didn't run through the woods to end up living with another damien. He said he wants to go shopping but I know what the real reason for him wanting to go out, he's done this five times now. We go out somewhere and he tries to inch away from me to see how I react. I know he thinks it's for my good that I'm learning something from this little game he plays but the only thing I've learned is when the perfect time to run is. I didn't plan on staying with him this long but now that I have I've started losing focus. He's changing my perspective on the male species, he's proving to me that God doesn't hate me. I don't want to change how I think, I just want to run away from here. I want to run away from Mike and the wonderful life he promises me. A life without fear a life where I can be me, I don't know if I can live that life here. This town could've been my permanent home if it wasn't so close to the pack. Walking away from the bed I go to stand infront of the mirror, this is my everyday morning ritual.

I stand infront of this mirror and I look at how I've changed since coming here. When I first came I was bone skinny but now since Mike forces me to eat all three meals I've put on quite a load. I have curves in places that were once straight as a pencil, but I'm not complaining. I unconsciously like this body because if I look fat men won't look at me. My mother always told me to never put on weight cause men lose interest once you get fat, I really hope she wasn't lying. Looking at my face in the mirror I can see that my scars have healed nicely plus my hair has gotten longer. I think it's cause of all the food I'm eating but I'm enjoying it at this length.

Taking one final look at myself I make sure I know what I'm doing today. While getting dressed I run through the plan in my head. I was absentmindedly getting dressed when I stop to look at my closet I realize that there are cloths here that are new. This is confusing because when I first came here all I had was the cloths on my back but Mike went shopping and bought me cloths. Most of the cloths were baggy due to him not knowing my size but I liked how baggy they were. It gave me room to move and to cover myself which was impossible to do with the cloths that damien required me to wear. Just dismissing the new cloths I put on a pare of jeans and one of the jackets that Mike has bought me.

Walking downstairs I see that Mike is sitting on the last step texting someone. Patiently waiting for him to realize that I'm behind him and that  he should move I see that he is not getting the hint. Coughing loudly to get his attention he's still staring at his phone so I just decide to slip past his large frame. As I skillfully step around him I manage to get successfully passed him.

"Damn it sophia I was hoping you were going to speak up to me." Turning to look at him I see the disappointment on his face.

Earlier this morning after the kitchen incident I had a pep talk with myself, I was going to become the original me. The happy me back home with my family who was sassy and determined. So growing some balls I look him straight in the eyes and declared, "Well if you stopped being such an idiot you would have heard me stomp down the stairs and cough loudly. Those are some clear signs to get someone's attention."

His head moves back a second as if he just got whiplash but then his face beemed with pride for me. Standing up to his full height he came to stand inches away from me, I could feel my right eye twitching abit but I stood my ground. Moving his hand back abit I thought he was going to attack me but he extended his hand out between us in a handshake gesture. Blowing out the breath I didn't know I was holding I shook his hand and gave a little smile.

Dropping my hand Mike walked around me and opened the door waiting for me, "come on let's get moving we got a day of shopping waiting for us." He said.

Grabbing the coat on my way out I made my way over to the car. There was a little voice in my head that was questioning my plan, should I do this today? Why can't I wait a little bit? It's not like I have a time limit on when I need to leave, all of these thoughts consumed me on our drive down to the store.

I should really reconsider my whole plan.