Numb.
Freak out in panic? Check.
Get angry? Check.
Worry until almost sick? Check.
Feel depressed? Check.
Refraining from cutting? Barely.
Feeling worthless, stupid, a bother, not good enough for anyone/anything, ugly inside and out, a mistake, just a major fuck up. Yes.
Now just kind of numb.
Numbed in a daze.
Wishing to just disappear so badly, to not face what is to come and what is already here and what is already torment.
Wishing to disappear.
Wishing.
To bad wishes don't come true.
-sighs-
Night.
