Heart of Ice

Nightmares

*Dream*

He grabbed my arms and told my parents that we were going to bed. I started to shake with fear. He was going to do it again. Once we were out of sight, he threw me on the bed. "Oh, I'm going to enjoy this. Keep your mouth shut!" He said as I started whimpering. He ripped my PJs off and started touching me. I started crying silently when he stuck his finger inside me. "Shhhhhhhh!" he positioned himself and started pumping into me. I started crying harder because it always hurt. "Shut up you brat!" he said in between thrusts. He finally found his release and let go inside of me. I shuddered and shuffled out of the bed. "Remember, if you tell anyone, mom and dad will die." he softly called after me.

"Nooooo!" I sat up breathing heavily and covered with sweat. "What? What happened?! Oh..." Rayna took one look at me and she knew I had another nightmare. "Come here.",She opened her arms and I curled into her embrace sobbing quietly. "How could he do that to me? What did I do to deserve that?" I cried even harder wondering why, why did my older brother find pleasure in bringing me pain?

"Shhhhhhh shhhhh. You didn't deserve what he did to you. You are a brave person to have gone through that and still stand tall. He doesn't deserve to be your brother. In fact, he ISN'T your brother. Lucas and I are your family now and we will make sure nothing happens to you. I promise. Now shhhhhh.", she started humming and soon I fell asleep. I always had the nightmares, but they aren't always so bad. Only Lucas and Rayna know what my brother did to me and they helped me get passed it. Now I don't flinch every time someone tries to touch me.

They really are my family and I will do anything to protect them. I slept until Rayna gently shook me awake. "Come on sleepy head. Rise and Shine!" I groaned and rolled only to fall out of bed and land with an "Oof". Rayna was holding her stomach while she laughed. "Oh my God, I think you just made my day! You should have seen your face! Ha!" She wiped her eyes and helped me up. "Gee how nice you were to stand there while I sat there on the floor with a broken tailbone.", I said bitterly. She just laughed and pushed me towards the bathroom.

The water felt so nice against my chilled skin. It helped wash away any remnant of the nightmare and I soon found myself leaning against the wall for support. I was almost asleep when Rayna pounded on the door. "Myra! Hurry your ass up! We leave in an hour and I need to make myself look fabulous!" I scrambled out of the shower and wrapped a towel around me. I opened the door to find a very disgruntled Rayna tapping her foot on the ground. "Drama queen." I muttered as I walked by. "I heard that!" she hollered. "You were supposed to!" I yelled back. I heard the door slam and got to work on my outfit. Today is going to be an interesting one since everyone knows my story. I grabbed my black and red striped v-neck and pulled over a lacy black tank. I hopped into my dark gray skinny jeans and steppes into my black leather boots. My beanie was set properly on my head and I put on my silver hoop earrings.

After getting dressed I slid down the stairs(which by the way is so much fun on a spiral staircase!) and munched on a few pineapple slices while I waited for Ray to get downstairs. "Dah dum dee dum dee dee dum." I hummed a childhood lullaby that my mom used to sing me. "Don't cry...hold your tears inside and imagine the dark blue sky...lit up with stars aglow...and with me right here by your side...don't cry..." A lonely tear fell down my face and I made no move to stop it. The sound of clapping had me spinning around only to find the one person that I hadn't expected...."Alex?"

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The first paragraph almost made me cry thinking about what she had been through...*tear* no! I refuse! Get back in there tear! *sniffs* whew well I hope this helps you understand some of what Myra went through and how she is still being haunted by her brother...what will Alex do? Make fun of her or something no one expects him to do?

Tomorrow I'm going to the movies with my best friend and my ex...talk about awkward! Well, do what you readers do and comment ,vote, and read on!!!