Moving Back Home

Chapter Seven

A/N This chapter contains MATURE CONTENT, if you aren't comfortable with that then I suggest you wait until the next chapter! I promise to give you a run through so you know what happens!

A few days passed and I am driving to meet Dean alone. It was time I give him the opportunity he really wanted. He's found an excuse to be around Jonah since I moved back. Jonah adores him, and Dean felt the same way. They were good together and I had to face the truth. Jonah wasn't just my son anymore.

Dean is sitting down at the Bluebird drinking a cup of coffee as he waits for me. I walk in with slight hesitation, but like a gentleman he pulls a chair out of me and we both sit down together. He gives me a puzzled look as I'm sure he didn't expect for me to call him. Its show time Cassie, you need to talk to him.

"Okay so I've been watching how you are with Jonah," I start to explain, "And I realize you are his dad and that you have a right to spend time with him."

He raises a brow, "Yeah, I do."

"Well, after a few days of thinking about it; I want to give you a legal right to Jonah. According to the state, he doesn't have a father and with a DNA test you'll legally become his father. We can arrange that you can see him whenever you want, and if something were to happen to me... Well, you'd have custody of him."

"Jesus Cass," His eyes widen, "You're truly ready to give me that?"

I frown, "Look I know it's not going to be an easy process for us to do this. For a while, I was worried you'd try taking Jonah away from me because I kept him from you."

"I'm going to stop you right there. Yeah, I am angry as hell about that, but I won't take a boy away from his mother. I was never that mad," Dean responds as the waitress refills his coffee.

"So, I am thinking that sometime next week we could get the process underway. Maybe start with the DNA test."

He nods, "Yeah, sounds good."

This is what needed to happen. Dean deserved this after almost three years of not knowing Jonah. I don't expect him to ever forgive me. The flame we had burnt out a long time ago, and I really am foolish to expect that there was a chance that it would light up again. I didn't want to love him anymore; he hurt me so badly before. Dean had no idea how much I wanted him to tell me that he loved me and that all this was pointless because he wanted us to be together. However, he stayed silent.

"Where is Jonah now?"

"I dropped him off at his first day of preschool," I tell him with a smile.

He didn't smile back, "How are you going to afford preschool when you don't work?"

"I had money set aside from when I worked in the city," I answer.

"Look Cassie, if you're giving me parental rights. I want to pay for some of Jonah's living expenses."

"I understand Dean and I appreciate it."

There was no way he'd get back together with me. Why was I wanting that to happen? Until recently, I was still angry at him for sleeping with Bailey. Somewhere down the line I went from being mad at him to being mad at myself. Had I really forgiven him? Yeah, I guess I have. He was so loving and supportive of his son; it made me forget everything he did to hurt me. All of the stupid jealous shit; it was completely forgotten whenever I saw them look at each other.

We head outside the restaurant after paying the waitress. Dean had to get back to work, and I guess I was going back to the house until it was time to get Jonah. I drive back home crying the entire way. Honestly, I was hopeless. There really wasn't anyone else for me but him. I had tried dating in the city, but none of them were Dean. I missed the passion that I felt inside when I kissed someone, and I missed the jealousy and all the fights. There wasn't any hope for me; my heart was his even if he didn't want it.