My songs to you { a zalfie fanfic }

Stare into the sun - Grafitti6

Just a short author's note: I write my chapters based on the songs I use for the titles and vice versa, so the songs hopefully might add an extra dimension to the reading experience! ;)

Zoe

I stood on the train platform, waiting for the train to arrive. Ugh, it was taking so lo-ong. I just wished I could already be on it, on my way to London, for my very first meet-up with the other Youtubers. Perhaps that would get my mind of off the events of the past few weeks. I specifically didn't want to think about hím, Jordan. I was still so angry and sad and confused with all that happened, why had he cheated on me? Did he want me to find out? Did I make him want to hurt me, was I a bad girlfriend? Was I the one to blame? I squeezed my eyelids together, forcing my eyes to shut and not let the tears take over. It felt wrong to cry over him, he didn't deserve anyone caring for him. Well, he was still on my mind anyways.

The train squeacked to a halt on the platform, causing me to jump a little. I'd been so occupied by my thoughts, I hadn't even noticed it entering the station. I took a deep breath to get myself together, grapped my bags and got on the train. I would enjoy this day, I promised myself. I wouldn't let anything ruin it. No panic attacks, no worries, and especially no Jordan. I took a window seat and plugged in my headphones. I messed around in my bag looking for my notepad and a pencil, so that I would be able to write anything down that came up into my mind, or to draw the view. I hadn't been to London since I was 15, so it felt like I went there for the first time all over again. I was very excited, the only thing that worried me a little was finding my way in the tube. And finding the party venue. And what the other Youtubers would think of me. And if they would be nice. And if I wouldn't panic. And, and, and, UUUUGH, Zoe, calm yourself! I thought to myself. At this rate I wouldn't even be able to get there without a panic attack. It would be best if I just cleared my head of any expectations, so that I wouldn't be dissapointed or stressed beforehand. 

I felt better now. I looked outside the window to see that we were approaching a station. Shit, I was on the wrong train... It would go to London, of course, but this one would stop at all other stations as well, causing it to be a lot slower. Plus, fuller. There would be a stranger sitting next to me in no time, I knew. Chill Zoe, just pretend you're busy and if they're talking to you, just answer and go back to what you were pretending to do. I know, this wasn't exactly a masterplan, but I had to be prepared for any kind of company. It might as well be a drunk! Oh god... I really couldn't panic now... This would be a long journey.

This is a short one, I'm still getting the hang of it! and I don't know if anyone wants to read my story anyway, so please let me know if you do!