My songs to you { a zalfie fanfic }

You & Me - Disclosure

for the record I didn't know what to call this chapter so I just put a kind of fitting song I like, sorry :( I had a different name first, but that's for a later chapter.....

Zoe 

I woke up in a soft embrace. Alfies strong arms were still wrapped around me, just like last night. I carefully looked over to see his face, peaceful in his own dreamland. I layed back down, I didn't mind to wait for him to wake up like this. It also gave me time to think. After all, I didn't freak out for no reason at all yesterday. My worry was real, but I needed to think about it differently. Of course, our relationship wouldn't be exclusive anymore if we told our subscribers, and it would be so awkward if we broke up. It generally wasn't the best of ideas to immediately go out and tell the world, even though I was sure of my love for Alfie. But I did want people to know in the end, because I didn't like hiding. It would be best to first tell our Youtube friends, then after a while, when we were together for a long enough time to call it serious, our family. When we felt ready, we could tell our subscribers. With all this planned out in my head, I felt relieved. This was going to work. Alfie and me were strong enough to get through any difficulties we would come across, and if he loved me just as much as I loved him, which he might just do, we would even get old and grey together. I couldn't wait. 

"Zoe?" I heard Alfie whispering my name softly. I opened my eyes and found myself still in the same position as when I last woke up. I must had fallen back asleep, I thought to myself. I released myself from his embrace and rolled over so that I could look into his eyes. He looked right back at me with a smile. I loved it when he smiled, it made me instantly happy. "Goodmorning", I yawned. "Goodmorning", he laughed at  my yawn. I decided to bring up the subject of privacy right now, since I could imagine him being uncomfortable with my stress and worry constantly on his mind. 

"Alf, I thought about yesterday."

"And, where did your thoughts bring you? Do you want to go through with us?"

"Of course I do! It's just that I didn't know how it would turn out with all this Youtube stuff around us and the lack of privacy and yeah, all that jazz. But now I know, or well, I have an idea. You need to be okay with it as well of course." I told him, and I gave him a peck on the lips.

"Sure, tell me. If it's what makes you feel safe, then I'll be okay with it no matter what"

"Awh Alf you're amazing. So I thought it would be best if we for now only told our Youtube friends, so that we can be together around them and they know not to include anything cute we do into videos and everything. Then later, when we've been together for a little bit longer we can tell our families. And maybe around that time, or a bit later, we can go out and tell our subscribers. But everything should feel good. We shouldn't feel pressurized into any of these steps. What do you think?"

"I think this can work out great Zo, and I think we will be fine. I believe in us."

"Me too"

I felt so relieved, everything was going to be great. We could do this. After cuddling up in bed for another bit, we got out to get some breakfast. Alfie insisted to make me some pancakes and coffee so I just sat at the counter and watched him juggling around with eggs and making me the best latte I ever had. When he was done we sat on the couch with a film and our delicious breakfast, and just ate and watched. I'd never been this much of a morning person A/N sneaky Lewis Watson reference here ;), but with Alfie I couldn't be anything but happy, no matter what time or state I was in.

Alfie

 It was good to see Zoe happy again, she was so bad last night. After we watched our movie and a couple of episodes of breaking bad, we decided it was time to go out and do something. Of course Zoe wanted to go shopping, so I went with her into boots and MAC and helped her decide on products I had no clue about. When she was finally done, we went to the nearest nando's. 

'Sooooo, watcha wanna do next?' Zoe asked me cheerfully. I thought for a second. 

'Uuuuuh...' She looked at me questionalingly. 

'Maybe film a video? You need to put your new product... thingies to use right?'

Zoe nodded excitedly. 'Yeah let's do the boyfriend does my make-up tag! Oh wait... Uhm the boy does my make-up tag?' I saw a glimpse of sadness flashing through her expression but it was gone in a split second. I agree and we headed back to mine. I knew it would be strange because we couldn't really be "us", and Zoe would probably have a hard time for a little bit, but it would be fine. And, it would be fun! Imagine, me doing a girl's make-up, let alone a perfect girl's make-up. I couldn't even make out the difference between a lipstick and a lipgloss or an eyeliner and an eye pencil...

A/N

Hey guys,

Just a filler because I felt like I had to write something. There will be a more exciting chapter soon (hopefully), but I'm also very busy with school and YOUTUBE, so this story is just another thing I try to fit in. But I will try, since 500 reads is rediculous to me (I never thought I would even get one haha), and I think you deserve some story for your time ;) please leave a comment if/what you want me to incorporate in the story, as a sort of request radio thingy but with a story :) I'll try to work on my chapters regularly so that I can upload once a week or once every two weeks, idk. 

Love, Ruby

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