My songs to you { a zalfie fanfic }

I wanna - all-American rejects

6 months later

Alfie

"Alfieeeee" I heard a voice behind me scream. I quickly spun around and spread my arms wide, and in no time Zoe was in my arms. I hugged her tightly, I'd missed her since the house warming party. "I missed you" I whispered into her soft hair. "it's only been a week silly" Zoe giggled. "I know but I still did, a lot actually" "Aaaaawh Alfred, I missed you too!" She beamed up at me. I smiled, then picked up her bags, which she'd dropped in the middle of the train station, probably when she saw me. We held each others hand as we walked out, on our way to the apartment. Caspar, my south African roommate, was out for the weekend, so Zo and I had it all to ourselves. It was going to be great!

"I've been looking forward for this weekend!" I told her excitedly. "me too! A whole weekend with my best friend in London!" Yeah, that's right, best friend. We still weren't together: in fact I didn't have the guts to even ask about our rebound "compromise". I didn't want to push her, but I really did want to know if and when we would be more than friends. Primarily, I wanted to know if we even were going to be more: I wasn't even sure Zoe still liked me as much as I still liked her...

But maybe this weekend would bring a change: I could feel it. We didn't really have any plans, we would probably film a collab or something and hang out with disney films for the rest of the weekend. I didn't mind doing nothing but watching Disneyfilms: The prospect of having Zoe snuggled up next to me on the couch for hours on end wasn't something I'd complain about. Only thing was, I wanted to do more than just cuddle. I wanted to be able to kiss her, tell her how beautiful she was, make her laugh. And not like friends do.

By now we had reached my apartment, and we hadn't spoken on the walk there at all, I'd been thinking the whole time. "Alf, what's up with you?" Zoe asked me. "Nothing Zo, was just occupied with thoughts, sorry" I said, and I lifted her up in a hug. She giggled, and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. She never did that, and I could see in her eyes that she was a little embarrased, now that she realized that too. I smiled at her and bit my lip. She was so cute, how was I going to make it through this weekend without spilling my thoughts?

Zoe

Alfie had picked me up from the station and we'd walked to his apartment in silence. It wasn't that I didn't want to talk to him, I loved to, but he just seemed on a whole different planet. I decided to let him have his moment, I had times like his as well sometimes. I still liked Alfie, even more than I had when we were at the park 6 months ago. I was ready to be with him, 100% sure I liked him for him. I hadn't thought of Jordan for months, in fact since the night of the Youtube party. The party where I met Alfie. So, I could just tell him that I was ready for us, I suppose, but my mind wouldn't bring me to. What if he was over me? I mean, he seemed to genuinely like me back then, but 6 months, in which we'd been best friends, would he even be able to see me like that anymore? I was going to ask him this weekend though, I told myself. Then we were at his place. I just pecked him on the cheek, when I realized I never did that. Oh god, why awkward already Zoe? I could feel my cheeks turn red, way more than my blusher covered.

Luckily, Alfie changed the mood by asking me when I wanted to film. "tomorrow would be fine, right? I feel a bit tired of all the traveling, and I look awefull when I'm tired" I told him. He silently shook his head, why? "Okay Zo, whatever you wish for!" He said happily. "Grab some starbucks and have a movie night then?" I jumped up and down, meaning yes. We went and had some Hot chocolate for Alf, and a Latte for me, then got into some comfy clothes, which in Alfies case meant only some pj-pants, and for me it was one of his sweaters and some shorts. Alfie looked amazing topless, I must say. I leaned back on the couch to his bare chest and he put his arms around me, meeting on my tummy. We always watched movies like this, and I liked it. Alfie turned on the Lion King and we watched the whole movie in silence. When it was finished, I sighed. "What is it, princess?" Alfie said jokingly. "Nothing," I replied, "just this movie is so adorable and deep and I love it so much". I knew that Alfie wasn't into Disney as much as was, so his answer suprised me just a little bit. "Yeah, me too. I think I like the story line about Simba and his Dad best, it's so heart breaking but so sweet all the same" I nodded. "I also like the thing about Simba and Nala, they're so cute together and at first they are the best of friends, and then when they grow up they turn out to be the perfect couple" I said this dreamily, hoping to get the hint across. I wanted us to be the perfect couple as well. "Caaaan you feel, the love toniiiight" Alfie sang quietly. "Awh Alfie you sound so cute when you sing, carry on please!" I sat up and looked him straight in the eye. "Allright, but only because it's you". He attempted a wink, but, as usual, failed. I laughed, everybody knew Alfie couldn't wink, it was so cute when he tried and he just blinked!

Alfie carried on singing and I sat back in his lap. Could this night get any better? I closed my eyes in an attempt to sleep. Alfie probably thought I was asleep already, because he started singing softer, almost whispering. I just listened and a little smile formed on my face. He chuckled, I probably looked like a total retard just laying there, smiling like an idiot. He moved his arm a bit, and I knew he was taking a picture. I didn't move, I didn't want him to know I was still awake. I liked being sneakily up. It made me feel like an undercover spy. Alfie still carried on singing, but he sang a different song now. He sang Baby, I'm yours, by the Arctic Monkeys, one of his favourite songs. "Zoe I'm youuurs, and I'll be yours until the stars fall from the sky, yours, until the rivers all run dry, in other words, until I die". Aawh, the song was so sweet. wait. did he just sing Zoe? I was confused. Did he just tell me he still liked me while he thought I was asleep? Oh my god. I wanted to sit up and kiss him, but I couldn't. He would be so embarrased, and it would be awkward and no. So I just carried on dozing off, until I felt his strong arms underneath me and he carried me to bed like a baby. He carefully laid me down and tucked me in, carefull not to wake me. "I love you Zoe Sugg", he whispered whilst kissing my forehead. Then he went off to go to bed himself.

Alfie

I basically confessed. I told Zoe I loved her. Okay, I wasn't exactly sure if she wasn't really asleep, but I knew her. She probably wasn't. But then again, she didn't react. So she either was asleep for real, she didn't understand how serious I was, or she just plain didn't want to hear. I hoped it was the first. I'd try for real tomorrow, after filming. I got under the blanket and fell asleep almost immediatly, dreaming about Zoe.

The next morning I woke up to the sun shining in my face. Silly Alfie, forgot to close the curtains. I peeked into Caspar's room, where Zoe was still fast asleep. She looked even cuter than she had yesterday, when I took a picture of her. I decided to let her have her rest, and walked out to get some starbucks for the both of us. When I got back I got into my room to set up the stuff for the filming. When I walked back out, my nose was met with a delicious smell. "Zoe? What are you doing?" I asked. "I'm making us pancakes, if that's alright?" Zoe put her head out of the kitchen door. She looked a bit messy, she hadn't taken her make-up of last night and she still wore my sweat. I smiled at her "Sure!". She carried on baking the pancakes, and I wrapped my hands around her waist. We stood like that for a while, Zoe baking pancakes, me holding her close. It probably looked like we were a married couple, but neither of us cared.

After we finished our delicious breakfast, Zoe went to tidy herself up and I got settled in my room, ready to film. She jumped next to me, looking gorgeous. "Sooo, what are we going to do today?" She asked me. "Well, I checked my phone earlier and I saw that Joey and Cat tagged us to do a tag. You alright with that?" "Sure, what is it?" "Uuhm, It's the love tag..." I said, looking away from her to hide my blush. "Oh. Okay then" she said. "We need to make sure we're clear about our relationship status though, because there are tons of Zalfie shippers out there" I stated. She looked a bit sad for a second, but the weak smile was gone in a second. "Yeah, totally, we'll just mention it right at the beginning" She nodded. So we did. A hour later we were finished, so I uploaded the footage to my Macbook and started editing, Zoe right next to me. There were going to be a lot of bloopers to this vid. When I was finished, I gathered all my might to make the big jump. "Zoe, we just told our viewers we are just friends, but what about the day at the park? What are we and, must importantly, will we ever be something else?"

HEY CUTIES I'M SORRY ABOUT THE LONG WAIT BUT I'VE BEEN BUSY TRYING TO CREATE MY OWN YOUTUBE CHANNEL AND CELEBRATING THE LAST WEEKS OF MY HOLIDAY SO I'M SORRY I HOPE YOU LIKE IT WHAT DO YOU THINK ZOE WILL SAY? XO