Shawmila Imagines

003 | don't listen baby

*mention of suicide trigger warning*

C A M I L A

It happened again.

More hate on Twitter, and more fans hate me. I was reading all of the tweets, and mostly all of them said, kill yourself. Of course, I didn't listen to them, but the comments are very hurtful. Shawn was right next to me, and I could only think about him. Him, and another girl.

What if he knows about my haters? I thought quietly. Will he be disgusted and break up with me? Who knows? Maybe he will.

I closed the app, and sighed. Tears clouded my eyes, making them glossy. I didn't want to let Shawn see my tears. I couldn't. I closed my eyes— which may I say was the biggest mistake ever— and tears started falling down my pale cheeks.

Shawn turned to me. "Camila? Oh my god, why are crying?" He looked like he's been torn apart. "Camila! What happened? You can tell me, you trust me. . Right?" He asked. I looked down in reply, and nodded.

"Y-Yes. Um, do you know about the hashtag that's been trending on Twitter?" I asked him, silently screaming and crying inside. I didn't want to let him know about it. I knew he cared about me— and loved me— but I can't bare to see him cry becuase of me.

Shawn looked confused, and dumbfounded. "Uh, no. . There are hashtags on Twitter? I thought only Instagram but whatever." He laughed, and slapped his forehead. "But, what were the hashtags?" He asked.

I looked so embarrassed. "I Hate Camila." I blurted out, as tears started to fall again. This was the part I didn't want Shawn to see. I bawled out tears, so sobbing, and crying while hugging him dearly.

"Shawn. . Will you be there when this happens?" I asked, hoping he would say something. I sniffled, "Will you?"

"I will, I promise."