To Be or Not To Be

Chapter 9

He lets go off me and turns around, leaving the room.

"Jack please... I don't want to be alone" I whimper as he disappears from sight.
Just him some space, he'll come back

I hope...

-1 month later-

"And then they all died" I giggled as Bunny finished his story, he chuckled along. (Markimoo reference)

"You sure didn't like vanish, did ya?" I chuckled and wiped the tears from my cheeks.

"Ey, I have no time to rage over that game. I got the final key, got to the exit and that freaking monster got me! So I'm finished with it!" Bunny exclaims, standing up from his chair.

"You didn't finish it! You have to get out of the place in order to finish it!" I yelled, sitting back in my chair.

"Okay, were done with this conversation" He said, sitting in his chair angrily.

"Okay, okay... Have you heard from Jack?" I ask, sitting back up.

"Mate, ya ask this question everyday. I haven't heard from him" He says, looking at me sympathetically "I'm sorry, he just doesn't want to be found"

I sigh and look down at my legs "No, it okay... I just miss him"

"I know, but he will come around soon. Just be patient" He says as he stands up and started walking towards the egg making room "I'm going to start on the eggs, wanna help?"

I shook my head and smiled "I think I'm gonna go for a walk. I need to get out for a bit"

I stood up and pushed my chair under the table, heading for the exit as bunny goes to paint eggs.
Elsa, you've been grieving for him... It's unhealthy for you.

You know what it feels like, being without him!
Yes, but you ate acting as if he's dead! How would you feel if you hurt the one you love?

I froze as she said that.
"No, No!" I screamed as I saw Anna on the ground with a stab wound on her stomach "Anna! Please! S-Stay with me!" I held pressure on her wound as her breathing became frantic.
"I-I'm so cold" She whispered as tears slid down the side of her head.
"HELP!" I screamed, hoping someone could hear.
"W-Where's my sister? I-I need her to know I'm sorry" She said as she gasped for air "P-P-Please t- te-tell her"
"I know, just please don't leave me" I begged, watching her breathing slow to a stop.
"No" I cried as I laid my head on her chest "I'm sorry! I tried to protect her, I'm so sorry! This should be me, not her!" I exclaim
Els, I'm so sorry... I-I had no idea that happened.

It's fine, It's in the past. Tears wield in my eyes as I continue walking towards the exit.

What if she survived? What if it was me? She could've had a family with Kristof, grew old with him... She would've been happy. Happy without me.

But, you see. Anna is an immortal after so many years of being dead, why did Manny bring her back just so I could kill her again... W-Why'd he bring all of them back?

I pushed the door open, walking onto the fresh green grass for the first time in ages. I know I should be happy right now... But I'm not.
Els, please try and enjoy it. You deserve it.

How am I suppose to enjoy it? How can I enjoy myself after remembering what I did to my sister!? HOW!?

No response.

I sighed, running my hands through my hair.

Hylia, I'm sorry. I'm just really stressed out right now.
It's fine, I'll let you have your space for a bit.