Road Trips (A Lucaya Story)

I Hate You, I Love You.

⚠Rules: You must listen to the song above ☝ while reading!⚠

Maya's pov

The door opened and we were able to see Riley, holding Lucas' phone.

"Dropped your phone." She said dropping it herself and running away.
"Fuck." I cursed. "What the hell was I thinking? What the fuck is wrong with me?" I questioned grabbing my head and walking out of the janitor's closet. I looked left and right but Riley was out of sight.
"Maya, we can finally figure it out. The hard part is already done."
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I asked. "I gotta get out of here." I ran outside school and went home.

Once sitting in my bed I tried to think what was next. I lighted up a cigarette and smoked it peacefully. I sat on my desk and took out a piece of paper and a pen and tried to orginize my thoughts. Oh fuck that, I just wrote what I thought would be understandable.

"Riley,

After today, I feel like you might not be as welcoming as always if I go through your window. I stil think you deserve an explanation.

The fist day we saw Lucas on the subway, I liked him, but I've always wanted you to achieve your dreams, and I know that having a prince charming of your own has always been one of them. I steped back. Then came all of that shit before graduation in middle school. I told Lucas to pick you and he did. We were kids and I think at the time what we all thought was right was to see you two together.

That I stepped back doesn't mean all of his feelings went away. When I see you with him I try to be happy for you, because I love you and I know you both need somone to tell your princess and ranger rick stories to, but it's hard, I missed him. I remember those few weeks I could be open with my feeling in middle school and I just want to go back. I missed kissing him. I tried to replace him with Josh for a while but I just can't put any one above him.

I have this feelings but I didn't think he had them back, I thought all he was ever goin to see was you, and it turned out Huckleberry liked me back. We just wanted to see if we would work before anybody got hurt, but we went too far.

All I wanted was for him to give me one more kiss, I never expected that dream to turn into this mess. I never want to lose you, I love you. I'll just go away when Lucas is around, or if you don't want to get back together with him, we don't have to talk to him. Or, if you don't want to talk to me.-" I dropped a few tears that made the ink mess up a little. " I understand. I just want you to be happy Riles. After I what I did to you, I know it doesn't look like it, but I swear it's the truth. It would make me extremly happy if we could just talk for like 5 minutes? Only if you want to.

I always want you around. You are my sister and we'll always be attached, but if you don't feel like talking anymore I won't bother you.

I love you,

Maya.

I left my house and took a train that left me at Riley's place. I climbed up the stairs and picked on her window. Riley was laying on her bed that was covered in tissues. She was eating a huge bowl of ice cream while watching Breakfast at Tiffany's on Netflix. I slipped the letter under her window and went back home.

🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

It was about 2 am when I heard noises on my window. There was a thunder storm outside so I suposed it was the wind, but when I looked out, Riley was trying to get in.

"Oh god, Riles, what are you doing here?" Riley didn't say a word, instead she hugged me while sobbing on my shoulder. Later I lented her a pair of pijamas and added a blanket in my bed. We both got under the covers, Riley looked much better.
"I got your letter, but know it's my turn to explain."

Heyy! I just wanted to tell you that I've been re-reading my book and there are a lot of grammar mistakes and typos😂 I wanted to apologize about that, I type really fast and I don't check before publishing so I'm really sorry if there are some senteces that aren't clear enough... Anyways remember that you can leave me your song sugestions in the comments, and todays chapter goes to Alisha_1144 who sugested the song I hate you I love you😊💜