skinny boy » joshler

one || josh

josh's sitting in class, gnawing away at a shred of a fingernail, his mind miles away from the lesson. it's math, why would he ever pay attention anyway?

"josh?" 

his head jerks up and he sees his teacher, eyes fixed on him, and stammers out a, "sorry?"

"answer to number four," the teacher repeats herself, sighing, and josh blushes furiously, bowing his head to check the answer scribbled messily on his paper.

"segment ab, um," he manages, knowing it's right, and hunches over even further to avoid the looks of the other kids.

he's balled up as much as possible in that hard, blue little chair, his feet crossed tightly over each other and his elbows tucked in to his chest, pressed against his stomach to keep it in check, sucking in as much as possible, spine curved down. he may not be small, but he'll make himself look the part.

brown curls fall in his face when he looks up, just briefly, just to make sure no one's looking anymore. he hates this class, it's his least favorite, cause he's too smart for it and he knows it, the kids make fun of him for being so weird, quiet, awkward—

josh extends one arm from his cocoon and brushes a sloppy sketch onto his homework, hiding the answers behind a mess of graphite. it looks a bit like the boy sitting across from him— not quite, but it could, if you squint. his other hand adjusts to pinch the fat on his "skinny" jeans, squeezing hard enough to make tears spring to his eyes. he blinks them away and keeps drawing.

the... boy? across from him shifts, and a curtain of hair falls in his face. brown locks, neater than josh's, slightly darker in shade, and far too long for a boy his age. long hair is cute on little boys. high school? it gets weird.

no one knows what that kid's deal is, either. he's weird, and that's saying something, coming from josh. he never talks, his hair is too long, he looks like he just walked out of a girl's closet, the list goes on. what kid would wear a flower kimono to school?

not that josh cares. he just bows his head and keeps sketching, his leg tapping away.

he won't care, as long as he doesn't get noticed.

hey kids im gonna rewrite this & it's gonna be more josh centric and yay lets .. have a fun time .., it's gonna b sad , tw for eating disorders & Maybe transphobia & Maybe sexual shit but Maybe not also death / suicide (maybe) / self harm / ....... depression sdkhfk
~xo ace