Monster (A Reylo FanFic) Wattys 2016

Chapter VIII

A/N: I'm just going to move all of the following authors more to the very beginning of each chapter. Anyway thank you guys for 1.6k reads this means so much to me and please excuse all the mistakes, hopefully this chapter can be edited soon.

Edited by FabiHoran13

Kylo Ren's POV:

I hadn't been truthful to Rey. I had maintained the secret to myself, hiding it in the back of my thoughts, but it haunted me every minute I spent with her. It had a voice desperately whispering to be revealed. I am aware of all the opportunities I've had to tell her, but I wasn't ready to lose her and I don't  think I'd ever be ready.

Up to this point I had never quite understood the meaning of love. I couldn't believe anyone one was truly capable of putting someone else's needs and emotions before their own, but now I understood. I grasped the idea of protecting and loving someone so much that it hurt.

For once in my life I was happy, I had found someone who loved me with all my flaws and shattered pieces. Rey was slowly fixing me and returning me to my previous self.  I couldn't resist being apart from her for more than a minute, without her I felt like the air was being sucked right out of me. Although we never did tell one another how we felt, we could sense it in one other. Love was present in every moment. In every kiss, in every embrace, in every touch. Her voice was always ringing in my head, her laugh was music in my ears. The way the name Ben rolled of her lips sent me into ecstasy. Her soft skin was irresistible to touch. I felt unworthy of her love and affection and sometimes that thought of not being good enough for her pained me.

A missing piece of me had always been missing and I finally realized she was the missing puzzle piece that made me complete and without her I would die.

It was difficult to hide our affection from every other person belonging to the First Order. After Hux's suspicions spread around, Rey and I had to be more cautious of where and when we met. I would only see her for a few hours while we trained before returning to my other duties with Snoke. He had finally come to his senses in completing my training and preparing for the attack against the Republic, but it was almost useless.

After my late night meetings with Rey, I went off to train by myself before resting. I had become more powerful than Snoke could have ever made me because I held an advantage. I had someone who believed in me and motivated me to never give up, and that was exactly what I was going to do. Soon the time would come to rebel against him and  rejoin my mother. She probably despised me after every terrible thing I did. If she loved my father as much I loved Rey, I could just imagine how much pain she had undergone after losing him and it was all my fault.

Rey would hate me too after I admitted this secret I've been hiding for months. Maybe if she realized I had the courage to speak the truth she could find it in her heart to forgive me.

Rey's POV:

I'm completely and utterly terrified. I'm terrified of how deeply I loved Ben. I am being controlled by all these emotions he provoked in me, but the thought of him leaving me was what terrified me. I know how it feels to be abandoned with no one to turn to, no one to console you. I never wanted to live through that ever again.

Ben had warned me we had to be careful of how we acted when our affection. We were already being observed by others and any tiny slip up would cause him problems from all directions, but most importantly with Snoke. His betrayal to the First Order could possibly have him killed and I was going to do anything in my power to prevent that, but I couldn't protect him from within this room, waiting an not being able to do anything.