Behind a smile;;Rucas/Riley Matthews

Ch7// worse

*hey so I'm just gunna be talking up here since it's faster bye!
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[rileys pov]

So it has been a month since Farkle and I found out. Maya barely talks to us and has been hanging out with Lucas's popular friends. I'm home from school because of the deppression again.

I take out the knife from my closet. I take my thigh and begin to watch blood slowly run down onto the paper towel..

1........2........3.........4..........5.............6................7....................8.......9

I passed out.

I soon wake up in a hospital bed to Farkle sitting next to me holding and icepack.

Farkle: hey you okay?
Me:'yeah fifth time that's happened this month I think I got used to it.
Farkle: well if it helps.....I got nothing.

A doctor walks in.

Doctor: well ms Matthews the blood work came back and it says you haven't eaten for the passed week. I told you the last time you were here to eat.
Me: I know but I look at food and I can't eat it.
Doctor: well I have a medication that will help you crave food so if you sign this you can take this bottle and I'll let you go.
Me: oh that would be great thanks.
I sign the paperwork while she goes and gets the medication, wow I wish one to take daily, fun.
Doctor: here you go now you are free to leave, I'll be expecting you soon probobly.
Me: I'll try harder.
Doctor: I know you will, I have FAITH.

That word stuck with me. Oh a brilliant name and beautiful word. (A/N maybe a babies name?)

Farkle and I get to his car and we stay silent. He PRACTICLY lives at our house, LITTERALLY he has his own room and everything.
He has stayed for over two months once when I almost commit suicide but the pills didn't work.

Me: so how long ya staying this time!
Farkle: oh trust me I'll be here for a long time.
We park and he helps me get out of the car.

We get into the house and I see mine and farkle so parents sitting in the living room waiting I guess.

Me: hey what's up!
Cory: we need to talk.
Minkus: yeah we do, sit please you look tired.
Topangas: so we have come to a conclusion.....you and Farkle are going to be homeschooled here.
Farkle: really!
Minkus: yeah.
Cory: Riley you have been through a lot and Farkle you are there for her every second of every day, I mean you practically live with us.
Topanga: and we think it's best that you, Riley, are here.
Me: wow....yay...no more bullies, no more Maya, no more Lucas, no more populars!
Farkle: and everything is okay because we only have one more year till we graduate.
Me: so when do we start ?
Cory: Monday!
Me: okay well well be at the bay window. Bye.

We head upstairs to the bay window and just sit there.

Farkle: hey Riley you wanna go to topangas!
Me: yeah let's got oh wait I have to take this cause maybe I can have a pastry.
Farkel: great at least you're taking a step.

We get there and he gets us some stuff. Missy comes up to us and says.
Missy: hey no stealing!
Me: we're not! My parents own the place.
Missy: I'll get you someday.
Farkle: hey you okay?
Me: yeah.

Everywhere I go so somethings  bad happens.

Oh great it's a whole group of populars.

It's maya, Lucas, Charlie, Brandon, Missy, Sarah, zay, billy, Darby, and yogi.

I'm wearing a ripped nirvana tank top with, black leggings, and combat boots.

I left my jacket in farkles car but he knows I don't like going places without him so I just sit there where everyone can see the scars and burn marks.

Farkle and I have more of a grunge style, we changed.

I have scars all the way up my arms with wrist bands to my elbows.

I see them staring at us and I just try to ignore it.
Oh no here they come, the whole group.

Maya: hey bitch no one pity's you, we all see your arms, no one cares.
Me: thanks for the info bye!
Billy: I heard Farkle stays at your house most of the time slut!
Farkle: I'm there because I'm the only one that k led her problems.

Lucas just stares at me but probably because of my arms.

Next thing I know is that maya punches me right in the mouth, great now she busted my lip.

Me: what's your problem!
Maya: my problem is you, you being alive just sickens me!
Me: but why tho I never did anything!
Maya: hey no talking back bitch! Just get out!
Me: actually my family owns this place so I can do whatever I want!
Maya then slaps me and they all walk out.

I can't do it anymore, they never get in trouble. Now it's time.

I do somethings really dumb.

I walk out of topangas and into the street..
I black out.