The Girls I Have Loved Before

Chapter 3 - The enigma

My last two years before college. The most important years of my life. The years of exams. But as we students like to call it, the highway to hell. It was vital that we took these tw seriously and performed well in our exams as it put us on a path where there was no return. No second chance. No do-over. One chance. We could either make it or break it.

I read a quote somewhere in an old book in an old library. Which was by Confucious. It read ~ "Your age is not a measure of how old you are it is a measure of how many years of fun you've had." This stuck with me. I can't stop having fun and taking risks and falling in love all over again just because I have exams.

Recovering from the pain of my terrible heartbreak by my first love I held my head up high and tried to move on.

Nicholas Sparks ~" The first time you fall in love it changes you forever and no matter how hard you try that feeling just never goes away."

This was true. No matter how hard I tried. No matter how much I was in love with someone. I would never be in love with anyone as much as I was with her. But I still tried to find someone knew this time I used a different approach. I didn't wait and be shy about it. I started to like her and I told her.

People wouldn't consider her the prettiest girl in the school. But I did. She was beautiful, but not like those models on TV. She was beautiful for the way she talked and the way she walked. Everytime I spoke to her I saw that sparkle in her eyes. Her eyes had their own vocabulary. What a beautiful language to learn.

She didn't take it well. Once again I misjudged the situation. We were good friends and then we became strangers. We talked but I could sense awkwardness between us. Which made it all so hard for me. I loved her. I don't know why even to this day it confuses me. How can one girl illuminate a guys world?