The Girls I Have Loved Before

Chapter 5- Scars never heal

The day before our first date she messaged me and said she had to cancel. I asked her why and she said family problems, which seemed to be a valid excuse as family always come first. Before anyone.

The following week I asked her to reschedule. She said that her father was unwell and she had to take care of him. I gave her another week. I started to get annoyed now as she wasn't replying to my messages. The following week out of the blue she messaged me asking if I was free after school to make out. I asked her why she didn't reply to my previous messages and she said she was 'busy' which made me a little suspicious. I denied making out with her as I had a family event on that evening. She didn't bother to even reschedule that herself.

The days that followed revealed the truth about her. One of my friends was in her class and she was mentioning her boyfriend. My friend asked to see a picture and so her surprise it wasn't me. When I found out I confronted her. She told me that she never really liked me. She was just bored and wanted to mess around. She liked another guy and didn't want me anymore. I felt like a discarded old toy.

What sort of person messes with someone's feelings for fun. In my religion there is no such thing as pure evil or the devil. But everyday since when I look at her I see evil. Nevertheless as she was my first proper love. I can't bring myself to stop thinking about her.

The year turned over and we were in 2016. Her and I were like strangers. We never spoke, we never shared a look not even a glimpse.

January flew past very quickly. She was with her new boyfriend who she played me for. February was upon us and hence that meant Valentine's day was approaching.

Now I don't believe in angels or fairies. But I do believe in karma. I knew that if I was patient whoever dared to wrong me would suffer the same fate as I did. I was right.

She seemed to be happy with her boyfriend, I saw them around. Here and there once or twice. I wished that should be me, holding your hand, that should be me making you laugh, that should be me buying you gifts and feeling your kiss. That should be me...

A few days before Valentine's day word spread around the school that she had been dumped for another girl. Every cloud has a silver lining I thought to myself smugly. At this point I rediscovered religion. That couldn't have been a coincidence that the one that broke my heart was now heartbroken by the one who she chose over me.