Italy, together and apart

Draining days

  The morning comes too quickly, but instead of sleeping in like I always do, Japan comes in and wakes us up. His face is red even though we are clothed. Maybe just being close makes him uncomfortable, but that's how I am. Russia is already awake, but he let's Japan lecture me about sleeping in anyways. As I sit up, Japan goes silent, cutting himself off from his own lecture. I look up at him, confused and see his face deep red and he's looking at me. What's that face for? Russia quickly covers me with a blanket and smiles at Japan.
"Could you leave so we can get dressed?" Russia asks. Japan practically runs away from the room, blushing. I look up at Russia, still confused.
"Ve~ what's his problem?" Russia gets off the bed and starts to change.
"Your robe was untied and open, Italy. You just showed Japan your whole body." I feel my face burning as I get up to change.
  I turn and slip off my yukata, getting a different one to put on since Japan said I could have more than one. I slip my arms in the sleeves and tie it around my waist. The left sleeve falls off my shoulder and I try to pull it back up, but Russia's lips on my shoulder stop me in my tracks. He kisses my neck and shoulder softly and I can tell he's trying not to make any more marks as he does so. I close my eyes and enjoy his attention for a bit longer before he finishes changing and goes to tell Japan about our leaving.
  The air outside is hot and humid, making me struggle to breathe normally. The car ride home is silent since my brothers are both too tired to talk to each other. Russia wraps me in his coat again and carries me into the house once we get to the driveway. I wave at my brothers as Russia carries me into the house. My feet hit the floor with a small thud and I smile at Russia. "That was a fun little trip, wasn't it?" He nods and sits down, looking at some papers on the table. "What's that?" I ask him. He looks up at me for a second and I sit next to him.
"They are papers for a wedding ceremony, if you would like to have one, that is."
"Of course I do! When would it be?" His smile gets bigger and he looks back at the papers.
"3 days time. After the ceremony, make sure you're ready to leave because I'm taking you on our honeymoon right away." I nod and lean on his arm.
"Russia, I have to go to training. I rejoined Japan and Germany so I have to leave you now. I hope you don't mind. I promise to be back later." He kisses me and waves, letting me leave to the meeting spot in my yukata still.
  The smile on my face seems to arouse curiosity from the others. They all stare at me as I zone out. I can't believe my wedding is so close! This is so exciting! I'm so happy~ veeeeee~ Germany hits my back and breaks me from my thoughts. I stand up straight and try not to cry from the pain. That hurt!!! Japan looks at me, obviously concerned, and stops Germany from starting training. "Um, could we perhaps hold off on the training? I am curious on Italy's condition. He does look happier than usual." Germany nods and Japan turns to me. "Why are you so happy?" I smile more and fiddle with my ring.
"Ve~ Russia is organizing a ceremony for our wedding in 3 days and I'm excited for the honeymoon, too! I hope we go to the beach or somewhere warm..." Japan nods and he looks like he's imagining it, but Germany looks more upset than happy. "What's wrong, Germany?" He shakes his head and sighs.
"Nothing, let's just get on with training." I nod and he starts jogging, running away from Japan and I as we run after him. I trip on my yukata and hit the ground. I feel the blood on my forehead and my eyes stinging. I sit on the ground start crying, not knowing what to do. Germany stops running and stands in front of me, leaning down to tend to my cut. I calm down a bit, but he excuses me from training and makes me sit on the bench anyways. "You made me stop my training and run back to help you because you came unprepared." He tells me, getting back to his training and leaving me alone on the bench until he comes back with a tired Japan. "Japan, you can go home, I need to talk to Italy." Japan nods and starts walking home while Germany sits by me.
"What's up, Germany?" I ask, wondering why he excused Japan.
"You need to come to training in your training uniform. This is a warning, but next time you will be punished." I nod and look at my hands.
"Is that all?" He shakes his head and looks over at me.
"You're sure this is what you want right?" I look at him and tilt my head.
"What do you mean?"
"Are you sure you want to marry Russia so hastily? I'm not trying to be rude, it's just that you got over me very quickly and I'm still not used to it. I think you should wait at least one more week to think it over. Think of your options, Italy. This isn't your only option, you know." I sigh and nod.
"I will think it over before then, okay? Will you be happy then?" I ask. He gets up and nods.
"Thank you, Italy. Goodbye." I wave as he walks away and start on my way to my house.
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Sorry I'm going through writers block or something. Maybe my mind is blank from semester exams and shit, but I can't think straight. It's hard to write when I'm not happy. The love of my life since kindergarten doesn't like me anymore and she "hates" me. My only friend at my new school is dating my ex boyfriend who I still really like and I have no wifi so I am really badly depressed. Usually, humans make me nervous, so I put up a happy front and it's not something I can control, but, now that I entered highschool and all this shit happened, I can barely smile at anyone and convince them I'm "happy". Hopefully I'm saved soon. Yesterday was my birthday 02-20-16 meaning I'm 15 years old now! Yayyy....I live so far away from all my old friends so I had to cancel all of my plans and I had a bunch of homework to do that I don't want to dooooooo. Sorry for anyone who read this rant. I will have more.