We Will Be okay

Chapter Three: You Don't Get To Stand There And Tell Me What I Can And Can't Do

A/N: Evie/Rue/Derek are 20 and Vincent/Tabitha/Jake (haven't met this guy yet) are 21 but they are all juniors at a community college.

I walk up to this sorry excuse of a human being so that I am standing right in front of him and that my next words can hopefully find its way to his small brain and not get lost in all the stupid-ness on the way

"I've got it loud and clear problem is, I don't actually give a shit about anything that you've said. Do you realize how I actually know nothing about you besides your name and the fact that you're the biggest filthiest fucking prick in this entire town? what does that say about you huh? Is it really worth having all this status? yeah you get the pretty girls, the rich family, the entire school seems to be sitting on the palm of your fucking hand but will they have your back when everyone realizes that underneath all of this shiny interior there is just a lost little boy who has no idea what he is doing with his life besides the many girls every weekend? yeah I see right through your facade, why else would someone be this much of an asshole? you think I care if anyone knows me? I've been spending these last hell-ish years trying to stay as anonymous as I can, as Invisible as I can. You don't get to stand there and tell me what I can and can't do. School is the only place where I actually have a say in what I-

I take a deep breath as tears stream down my face, pathetically wiping them away before getting out the next bit

"What I want to do and what I want to say, my mum strips that away from me every fucking day and I'm 20 for fuck sakes!! I ain't gonna let you take it away from me here, I refuse to back down to the likes of you!! You guys get it easy, do you know what it's like to have the care of a 6 year old boy weighing on your back? do you know what it's like to have your mum look at you as a whore? do you know what its like to avoid looking at any reflection or mirror of yourself because you're afraid to see who is looking back? do you know what its like to sell your body to old and young creeps for a few dollars? I just wanted to have 6 hours a day where I can pretend that my life ain't this shitty where I can just learn about shit like 'the water cycle' and 'the anatomy of the human body' which I will never find any use of. I just want - I- Jus- just want-

I can't finish off what I want to say because all the emotion and guilt and realization of how much I have to do to make sure Danny gets a good life tears me apart. I drop to the floor and just ball my eyes out, forgetting that the most popular figure on campus is staring at me in shock. Through all my wailing and tears I can hear him mutter "You're an idiot, even I can see that you're beautiful"

something in that sentence gets me but I just can't focus right now. I am so done.

"Evelyn!! What happened?"

Derek the only friend I have besides Rue, enters the class and notices me being a mess on the floor. He rushes down towards me pulling me up so that he can hug me

"Hey hey come on stop crying, do you wanna get out of here?" he whispers in my ear while rubbing my back

I nod my head into his chest just wanting to go somewhere - anywhere, he gets my message and picks me up placing me on my feet

"Im here to support you but do you think you can walk?" I nod again sniffling as I can feel my nose running. Very attractive Evie

He links his arm with mine and walks slowly so that I can have time to process the fact that my feet actually gotta move in order for me to get out of here.

He stops looking at me for a bit to look at Vincent

"6 pm at Sally's be there Salem"

I look up to face Vincent and instead of looking at Derek his eyes never leave my face, I blush a bit getting lost in the moment