Symphony of Freaks

Awakening

*Tommy's POV*

The longer we were on tour the more I realized that I was made for this. I used to get so depressed when I'm in the same place for too Long but when I'm on tour I feel so free. It helps a lot with the anxiety and the overthinking, knowing that I'm actually here because People want me to be here. And I want to be here. I don't miss a Thing. Even insomnia is not a Problem anymore because either Adam can't sleep as well and then we cuddle and philosophize about the universe or quietly write Music or when Adam actually does sleep I can bring my Body to fall asleep, too. It's weird. We're slowly becoming one Person. If I saw us somewhere I would be so annoyed because I really can't deal with romantic stuff but I'm just so ridiculously happy. There are many Things I could worry about but I simply couldn't care less about that. Being in one City after another all the time teaches you to live in the Moment.

"Hey, Kitty." I heard a rather small voice say next to me. With that I felt a pair of warm, soft lips on my cheek. Now, that's a great way to get woken up.

"Morning, Babe." I turned around to look at a tired Adam. When he Wakes up he usually Looks like he has fought a battle in his sleep. But it's still damn cute. I'd probably never think that about somebody else. Speaking of which, wouldn't it be great to watch what other People are dreaming about? Maybe it would be really creppy but I like creepy. I would love to know what Adam dreams about.

"What did you dream about?"

"This cute guy. I think you know him. Bleached blonde hair, lots of Tattoos and I think he Plays bass. He's also famous for the way his eyes glisten when he Wakes up." he said and gave me a quick peck on the lips.

"Stop kidding me. I'm serious." I tried to whine but I couldn't help but laugh at his quick perky answer.

"Why? At least admit that I tried." He smiled back at me.

"Okay yeah, it was quiet cute actually. But seriously, tell me. I want to know more about your weird sides."

"My entire being exists of a weird side but fine. I have this Kind of dream quiet often. Since I was Little actually. I used to think about what it would be like if the way I personally see Things is my own Little world that nobody else sees and in that world I act normal, like being on stage and performing. But in somebody else's head they see me in a completly different Situation but still doing the same Thing. You know?"

"What? No, not really."

"It's like I am still performing which would be normal in that Moment in my mind but somebody else sees me for example in a doctor's Office but I still do the same Thing, like I'm still acting like I am on stage. And I don't realize that the world I live in is not the world other People live in. It's complicated I know but you asked for it." He laughed apologetically.

"Woah okay that's a lot. But it explains why you look so exhausted in the morning." I joked but Adam didn't seem like he thought that was all that funny. For a second I actually thought he was mad at me but fortunately Adam can't Keep a straight face too Long and started giggling and shaking his head.

"Fuck you." he said, playing indignant.

"Nah, you can do that."

"Hmm Kitty is adventurous today." he commented in his sassy voice.

"Indeed. But to say it in your words: it's a shame that we have to live on this fucking bus." I pouted. But I still hoped that what I just said didn't come across wrong. Mostly I'm just trying to Sound funny and interesting but the thought of actually going further with Adam makes me pretty nervous. Also Kind of excited but still very nervous. I'm afraid that it will be like my first time all over again, that I'm going to embarrass myself. The more rational and less anxious part of myself though continually tried to tell me that this was probably not gong to be that bad, especially because Adam is such an understanding and Kind Person who never really judges anyone. Or at least he seems like that.