100 SLEEPLESS NIGHTS.
for the times i cannot sleep.
lowercase intended.
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© ethan.grey [hollowinsides]
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i always did forgive you,
no matter the bad
you'd done
told you you'd always
be my number one
love
despite making me bleed
blood.
i always tried to be
your rock,
someone to lean on, lean on,
give you love, give you love,
never give up &
try to be a better son.
but you tore me up inside
messed with my emotions,
my morals, my life
and you hurt me everynight, everynight
when you were off your meds,
when you weren't
feeling so sure of yourself,
when your mind was
b l a c k
swallowing you up,
when you couldn't think
straight,
when you hurt me everynight, everynight
to try and take the pain away ...
and he knew, he knew
but he didn't want to
loose you.
none of us did.
so i would sit on the top step, snuggled
close to her
and i would tell her a story
of how i would be next
that the beatings would never
s t o p,
that me and him,
we'd always be blue
from the wounds our mother gifted
whenever she wasn't feeling so sure
of herself
or when her mind was swallowed up
in that big black
hole.
family is shit.
at least mine was anyway.
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100 sleepless nights
Poetry- for those times when i cannot sleep. © ethan.grey [hollowinsides] all rights reserved 2015-2016