i just wanted you to know that
i'm deeply sorry for all the pain
i've caused you over the years.
i'm sick and i don't want to
make that as my excuse but
it does explain parts of me
that no one understood.
i'm going to get better though
one day i might have a life,
one that is exciting and
has purpose, goals and
happiness.
my brain is messed up
i think you always knew
but not to the extent that
i once knew
it's hard to get my words out
writing doesn't come easy anymore
i just wanted you to know
i'm still here (somehow)
and i'm hoping for a better life
if i'm lucky enough i might
just get another chance
but it depends highly on
my brain and my behaviour
i want to thank you for
being here, every step of the
way. through the hardest parts
of my life, i couldn't have done it
without you.
you think that you haven't spoken
to me in a long time but that's far
from true. you're in my spirit, my
soul and my shoe.
oh how i really do, really do,
love you.
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YOU ARE READING
100 sleepless nights
Poetry- for those times when i cannot sleep. © ethan.grey [hollowinsides] all rights reserved 2015-2016