jeffrey eli miller imagines ♡

Wish I Ever

A/N: Listen to the song when you Get to the lyircs of the story so you can umderstand the story :) a bit more .

Your In your bedroom wondering Why jeffrey would ever have it in mind to Cheat On you with Your own bestfriend. You reply that memory on How much hurt you felt You just couldnt Take it amymore , You were So tired of it being the same stories, Lies he's made that you just didn't know how much of it you can take . It's gotten to the point people in your school looked at you as if you were the bad guy in this relationship when in reality deep on people knew you weren't the reason for the pain you felt phiscially & emotionally. Jeffrey was Your true love.. soul mate You couldn't bare ever having to make a decsison like this but it was for the best to give him a better Life Without you in it .

Everytime You would think about what you saw back there how he had sex with you own bestfriend you just felt betrsyed & disgusted .

* Replying That Memory *

You went to jeffrey's house to get your phone that you lefted & decided to walk back & get it so you made it to his house going upstairs to his room to hear werid noises coming from it, so you layed your ear on the door hearing a girl moaning & a bed shaking You covered your mouth forming tears on what you heard You slightly open the door to see your own bestfriend mack having sex with your boyfriend You ran outside going home crying up a storm .

* End of Memory *

You think to yourself that you made a mistake for ever taking him back wishing you could take back your time & wishing you can delete him out your history too keep him as a mystery But Thats why he isnt here bevause he knows you care But you do everything out your way to say amymore but your just lying cause deep down you care but just cant accpect the fact you love him but you just cant deal with this pain you feel anymore.
So You go ahead grab your song book writting a song Of how u felt its something you wrote ahead of time but you just never finished it , it was about Him . Jeffrey. The person You trusted But failed You many times .

You contuine finishing the somg crying from so much anger & hurt built inside .

* The song *

Wish I never asked you what your name was
Wish I never looked at you more than once
Wish I never let you in my life
Cause you are so immature

Wish I could get you completely out my mind
Cause I'm sick of you making me look like I'm the bad guy
If I could I'd take back all my time
Cause you are so immature

And if I could I'd just forget about you
And if I could I'd just delete you from my history
Keep you as mystery, delete the possibility of there being a you and me

I'd take back every little single thing I gave you
Right back to the very first kiss we shared
Right back to the reason I had when I decided to care

Cause I don't care anymore
No I don't care anymore
No I don't care anymore
Oh I'm lying, so lying
[x2]

Wish I didn't believe you could love me
Wish I didn't believe that you could be my man, be my man, be my man, be my man
You a boy and I'm not you're toy

Wish I could get you completely out my mind
Cause I meant what I said from the first time
And if I did, then I still do
So I made that mistake when I loved you boy

I made a mistake
I made a mistake
(I made a mistake)

And if I could I'd just forget about you
And if I could I'd just delete you from me history
Keep you as mystery, delete the possibility of there being a you and me

Cause I don't care anymore
No I don't care anymore
No I don't care anymore
Oh I'm lying, so lying
[x2]

That's why he's not there
He knows I still care
That's why he's not there
He knows I still care
That's why he's not there
[x3]

That's why he don't care

Cause I don't care anymore
No I don't care anymore
No I don't care anymore
Oh I'm lying, so lying
[x2]

You Get up sing the last bit of the song crying looking at yourself with red swollen puffy eyes Finishing the last bit of the song you get the letters you wrote to your mom & jefffrey and bestfriends & including a couple of kids in your school. You think its time.. You've just had enough fighting you just cant deal with how much pain You feel that you've put up with it for so long you were just done... You grab your razor & slice it deep on your wrist making yourself fall with blood puddled on the floor while your on the floor eyes closed hoping your world ended for good .