young and stupid, i was because i never realized how stupid of me it was to force you to love me.
not necessarily force you to love me, but for you to be happy near my presence.
i wrote you a note. one i never gave you. it was about how much i loved you.
you didnt love me back . you just didnt see our future the way i did.
i was 11, so let a child dream.
you broke my heart. my very first heartbreak. i didnt know how to react.
the only thing i knew was to cry because thats what people did when they were hurt.
you hurt me, but i soon got over it.
why? i realized you just didnt love me back and i gave up. i gave up on you.
i threw what i thought we had in the trash, in an alternate universe so that i wouldnt suffer any longer.
you gave up on me long before i did.
i was too slow and stupid to realize that you were like a brick to the head.
that if i didnt distance myself from you i'd become ever more blind to your torture.
your torture of heartbreak.
- something you'll never realize
YOU ARE READING
never sent
Fanfictionletters i wanted to send to Michael, but knew it wouldn't affect him reading them as much as it affected me writing them. - to me dearest lover - from luke
