All the things you make me feel
None are good
You don't know this
You say you love me
You thank me for all the work
That I am forced to help you with
If I had a say in what I could do
I wouldn't help you
Wow
What does it say
When all my friends hate you
I never told you
But today I broke
And now you know
So how does it feel to be hated
By me
By my friends
By so many people
When I am with you
At your house
Where you live
I hide in my room
I try to get away
From you and her
She when your home
I like her
Not you
When you're together
You yell and fight
The little demon might not care
But I do
The yelling,screaming, fighting
I have always hated it
You can't tell
Because my walls are up
I hide all my emotions
My headphones are in
I can still hear you
I turn it up
I drown you out
But now you yell at me
I need to spend more time with the family
You keep telling me
I wish I could
I don't consider you or her or the little devil
My family
My family is my friends
Some I haven't met
Yet
I will one day
To your dismay
I will not stay here
In three years
I will be gone
I will be on my own
I will work
I will have fun
Finally away from you
You don't know my plans
You don't know my feelings
But what do you care
It didn't matter what you think of me
Any more
I want to get away now
Away from the yelling
The screaming
The fighting
About me
I can't do things right
I know this
You want me more active
I know
You want me out of the shade
And into the sun
I know
You want me to participate in class more
You want me to get better grades
I know
But you need to know something
All of this is not up to you
I try my best
I hate the sun
I love the cold
I get panic attacks
I have a B average
I try as much as I can
But my music I can't explain
It makes me happy
Isn't that what you should want
You don't care how I feel
As long as I do what I am told
As long as I am perfect
In your eyes
But in mine
No one is perfect
Not me
Not you
Not her
Not your little devil child
The devil child
I might be tiny Satan
But I am not as bad as her
She kicks me
She hits
She yells
She screams
At me
You don't care
Why would you
She is everything you want in me
Oh well wait three years
I'll be gone
I'll be happy
You might not be
But if you don't care
Then neither do I
Anymore
So I'm not sorry
That I'm saying all of this
At least no one knows who you are
Or who she is
Or who the eight year old devil
Right dad?
