Love me for me

playing games?

Its around 8:30pm and I just got home from work. I picked up diamond and I some Japanese food on the way home because we didn't feel like cooking. I ordered extra because she said M.j was coming over to stay the night. must be nice I thought. I haven't talked to Trey in like 3 weeks, but I don't stress these niggas. I can have anybody I want, and if I wanted I could've been back with Alex. honestly all these niggas be playing games

I went upstairs to shower, 30 minutes later I got out and put my hair in a messy bun, and put on a pink Victoria secret onesie. I loved those, I had them in every color they make. diamond was on my bed playing on my phone. probably being nosey. "lets take a snaphat selfie in our matching onesies" she said. we took the pic, and she put the caption "can't sit with us 😍 😏 😋 ". "really"? I said laughing, referring to the caption. she started taking hella selfies on my snapchat, so I got her phone, unlocked it and started posting on hers.

we then heard the door bell ring. I figured it was M.j, but diamond was dragging me downstairs with her. guess she wanted me to be a third wheel. when she opened the door, in walks M.j and behind him was Trey. I dint say anything, I just pretended like I ain't see him. he walks behind me, picks me up and carries me in the kitchen, and sits me on the counter. "look ma, don't be mad at me, I just been trying to get my shit together, me being M.I.A ain't have shit to do with you, and then I seen you at chipotle with that nigga I saw you with at the party and figured that's why you wasn't ready to be in a relationship, but even if that is true, you're mine, and ill take you from him" he said " no, he is my ex, and yes we are still close, but he is not the reason why I told you no. I told you no because I've heard about your reputation, and...... I've never had sex before, I know you'll cheat on me. I said looking at the floor. "man, I'm not gone hurt you, yea, I admit I got hoes, but it ain't nothing to cut them off if it means having you, I aint ever seen a girl that's beautiful and sexy as you are and isn't a hoe. I'm willing to change but only if you say you'll be mine" he said " we can start back talking and see where it goes" I said. we were about to kiss when M.j and diamond walked in. so we fixed our plates of the Japanese food I ordered, glad I ordered a lot because I didn't know Trey was coming. we went into the living room and turned on Netflix. We decided to watch Brotherly love First. after we finished eating, and the movie went off, diamond and M.j went upstairs, already know what was about to go down. " wanna go upstairs too?, just to cuddle", he added. so I led him upstairs, as we get up there we hear diamond and M.j moaning and shit. "damn, they started fast" I said. there was an awkward tension between us. when we got to my room, I turned on Netflix and decided to watch horror movies. I laid down and he laid his head between my legs, and I played with his hair.

after about an hour he had fell sleep, and I was almost sleep. I got my phone, got on snapchat, and posted a pic of us , I didn't post a caption, and since he was laying between my legs, his face wasn't showing either. ima let these hoes wonder before I show him off. just as I was about to lock my phone,  I received a text from Alex.

Alex: wyd beautiful

me: with Trey lol

Alex: okay 😢 just checking on you, have a good night.

I feel bad because I know he still love's me, but at the end of the day, he an ex for a reason. I like trey, its too soon for other feeling, but I'm feeling him, I thought playing in his hair. I'm not used to the hood type, I mean Alex got some hood in him too, but he also wasn't known for having hoes and shit. Alex was the good guy, while trey got that rough side to him. me on the other hand, I was always the good girl, never made anything less than an A all through school, my parents didn't play that. my dad was chief of surgery, and my mom was a lawyer. I always had to reach high expectations. I just don't want anything to get in the way of my future because its lit. also I aint tryna get played either. I've only been in one relationship before so I never had to deal with the drama, and hoes, and I aint tryna start now..... he is so fine though, he gotta be a heartbreaker, I wonder if he serious or just like the rest, playing games....