Letters to Hide

Letter 9

Dear Hide,
Is it possible for a monster like me to love?
I don't know anymore.
Do you know what sound a live centipede makes when you put it in your ear?
No? Good.
Can you count down from 1000 in increments of seven in your sleep?
No? Good.
Don't learn for me, would you?
Thanks.
Should I just tell you what happened to me?
You'd worry too much.
But I guess you'd worry either way.
Yamori, or better known as 'Jason,' tortured me.
They caught us.
When we were trying to escape.
He told me that if I came with him, he would leave the others alone.
I wish I had known he was lying.
I'm not going into details about what happened.
He lied.
He hurt me but he also hurt them.
But I wouldn't wish them in my position.
They wouldn't deserve that.
They made it out, during the CCG raid on Aogiri.
Just like me.

Love,
Kaneki