Letters to Hide

Letter 11.5

Hide?
Where are you?
No. No. No. No. No. No. No!
Why?
Why?
Why?
Hide you idiot!
I hate you!
Why?
You knew I was dangerous!
And you came up to me like everything was cool.
I think I just killed you.
Please tell me this isn't true.
Please.
Hide,
I don't want to lose you.
If I'm not insane already, if I killed you, I'll go insane.
Please tell me you didn't sacrifice yourself for me.
Please!
Hide you don't understand how it feels to think you might have killed your best friend!
Or do you?
Is this how you felt after I went on the date with Rize?
I'm sick with myself.
How can I compare that night to killing you?
Did I kill you?
Maybe you just lost an arm or something.
Please tell me that's what happened.
I don't want to have killed you.
I can't live with myself if I killed you.
You understand that, don't you?
Hide, please.

I love you,
Kaneki

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A/N: so this is the end of this story! I will be making a sequel, but I can't decide if it should be from Hide's point of view or if it should be Haise finding these letters and continuing to write to Hide even though he doesn't really have memories of him?
If you guys could comment to help my indecisive brain that would be fantastic.