I'm Fine (Cameron Dallas)

Chapter 9

I walk all the way to Matt's car across the parking lot, trying to hold my head high as much as I could but it was slowly lowering with every second that reality was sinking in. I was just video taped and photographed by at least 50 kids from school, having yet another emotional break down. I wasn't going to be freed from this mistake for a while. I can already tell.

When I reach Matt's car, I dig in my back pack for the set of spare keys I have and unlock the door quickly, hopping into the back seat. I lay back and sit there for a second taking everything in before breaking down in tears once again! Surprise! I know what you're thinking, 'wow, what a cry baby.' but I actually never have cried this much in my life. And it's not even my time of the month if you were wondering.

Why did this have to happen? If I would've just ignored the fact that Cameron was spending more time with Courtney in the first place, none of this would've happened. My secret crush would've stayed a secret and Cameron's rude side would've stayed hidden. Because really, I never thought there was ever a horrible bone in his body, but today was really the tip of the ice berg of that idea ever being true.

The car door opens, making me jump before seeing who it was.

"Go to class, Matt. I'll just wait here till the end of the day." I say laying down on the back seat curling up into a ball.

"No, I'm taking you home. We're going to spend the day together. Ditch school." he says confidently, getting into the drivers seat and starting the car.

"I just want to be alone Matthew." I whimper.

"No, you don't deep inside. Besides, I can't trust you being alone. Not after todays episode."

I watch him sigh as he concentrates on the road ahead of him. I could tell he was frustrated with me big time and I felt really bad. Not like I didn't have enough to feel bad about already...

"I'm sorry Matt" I finally come out with.

"You have nothing to be sorry for. You're heart is broken. This is normal."

"Normal?! Taking off your clothes in the middle of the school hallway is normal?!" I try and joke and little, sitting up in the back seat and wipe my eyes.

He cracks a smile and chuckled under his breath. "Well I didn't say you were necessarily normal." He continues to joke and I couldn't help but laugh.

We finally reach home. I go to open the car door but am quickly stopped.

"Wait, I'll come out and get you."

Without giving me any time to object, Matt gets out of the car and opens up the door for me and holds his arms wide open. I hug him and wrap my legs around his waist, resting my head on his shoulder as he holds me, carrying me into the house.

"You're the most amazing brother ever. You know that right?" I mumble into his shirt, not lifting my head.

"I know." He quietly laughs as he opens the front door and sits me down on the living room couch.

I go to dig out my phone from my back pocket and see the damage of todays episode I created, left on my social media, but Matt snags it right out of my hands before I could even unlock the screen.

"What the hell?"

"Believe me, you don't want to do that." He shakes his head in disapproval and places my phone into his own pocket, heading into the kitchen.

I knew he was right but I hated it. But I did have to look at my phone at some point in time. My plan was to get it over with while I'm already kicked down as far as I can be.

"Do you want anything?" Matt yells from the kitchen.

"Ice cream please!" I answer, turning on the tv and opening Netflix.

As I flip through shows, I just settle on the only one that ever makes me feel better. 'Friends'. In love with that show. I'm on my third time watching the whole series since this summer. (Which it's now March)

Matt eventually comes back and sits beside me on the couch, handing me my bowl of ice cream, which has my favorite flavor in it. Watermelon sherbet from Friendly's. 😍

"So what do you plan on doing about school? Because I know you obviously can't imagine ever going back."

"Well no matter how I feel, dad wouldn't even let me drop out so I don't know. Might just have to deal with it." I let out a big sigh.

"Maybe you could convince him in home schooling."

"Have you met dad? He's never around to home school me!" I force out a laugh, looking at him surprised he would even suggest this.

"I meant online school."

I take a moment to think and that sounded perfect. I really did not have desire to go back to school. I didn't want to seem like a coward, but I really didn't want to face anyone in that school ever again.

"Well I'll ask him as long as you help me and back me up." I reply to him, taking a big bite of ice cream into my mouth.

"Deal."

Usually, Matt and I get along, but I've honestly never gotten along with him this well! He's acting completely sympathetic to me and actually being there for me. As I said earlier, people usually just give up on me. People, meaning, especially Matt. He would always be one of the first people to stop talking to me when I had a problem and just made me go through it on my own.

"Why are you being so nice to me?" I finally question because I was becoming more and more curious by the second.

"What? A brother can't support his little sister?"

"You can, just I never had you show me you cared this much about me before..." I look into my lap, feeling a little awkward about this heart-to-heart since they never really ever happened in our family.

"Honestly, it's because I feel like this is a little my fault."

"How do you mean? You've done nothing."

"Exactly. I've done nothing to ever help you through a tough time before. When mom left, I secluded myself from everyone and never gave it a thought that you were going through the same thing as me at the time. And here, you were having a tougher time than I was anyways. I feel guilty that I wasn't there for you, and I guess now, I'm making extra-sure that I'm here for you this time." He smiles at me warmingly, and wraps his arm around me, bringing me close so he can kiss the top of my head.

I know I've said it before, but I seriously have the best brother in the world...

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