I Should Leave BoyxBoy

Chapter 5

Sammy on the side
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Who knew sitting on the very edge of the longest building in this town was a pure amazing sight?

I was on a 30 floor building's roof as I looked down on the street. My legs dangling off the edge as I kept looking down. Maybe one day. Maybe one day, in my depression state, I'll get the relief I need and just jump.

I'll just let go of everything and fall. Feeling the cold breeze rush against my skin. To feel my chest tighten. My heart beat increase. My mind to swim in confusion as it tries to understand this weird rushing but horrible feeling. To just feel something besides this loneliness.

Can I even say this is loneliness?
I don't seem to understand what any feeling is.

A alarm goes off scaring me almost sending me off. Woah calm down. Maybe one day. But not today. I got up and sighed as I made my way back to the elevator and pushed the 1st floor. It started to go down as I slipped my bag on my back.

It opened and I walked out going to the front doors and opening them to make my way to the Hell it self. Highschool.

I walked into the building when harsh names were thrown at me everywhere. Then something physical did. Turns out it was my girlfriend. My girlfriend I completely forgot about while standing on the edge of death.

I smiled. Not to her. But the thought that one day, maybe, that will be my death. Just falling. But since she didn't know that but seen my smile she asked "Happy to see me?" She winked and I played along "Yes baby. Always." I winked back to send her giggling "Okay! Don't miss me to much." She said then kissed my cheek then walking back to her group of gal friends.

I went to my locker and opened it to see a paper fall out. I bent over and picked it up to read it. Turn around. It said so I did. Only to regret it.

Some jockass punched me in my left cheek sending me flying on the ground. "Faggot!" He spat then walked off while spectators laughed and snickered while words of 'Queer' 'Fairy' 'Cocksucker' and other bad words were passed around.

I ignored them and got up to grabbed my books and closed my locker and headed to my first period class ignoring the smart remarks and the ugly looks they sent my way. I just kept walking.

Or so I thought.

Lets just say, the ground doesn't taste good. I lifted my self up and gathered my books then looked behind me to see who tripped me. Once I saw it I felt a cold hand clutch my heart and just squeeze. Behind me was Liam. The bastard who took my first kiss, ignored me for a whole day, and now is tripping me and telling me to go kill myself. Just wait Liam. One day I will.

I watched as he turned around finally and walked away leaving me in the halls alone 3 minutes late for class. I sighed again. Some people say when you sigh, you lose part of your soul. Right now, I feel like I don't got one.

I picked up my books and went to my class sitting down in my chair ignoring the Teacher and all the other idiots in my class.

The bell rang so I stood up only to be pushed back down. I sat there regaining my composer while all the other students left. Once they were all gone I stood up and grabbed my bag and headed out of the room towards my second class.

Once lunch came around I wasn't feeling like eating just like always so I walked outside towards the football stadium and climb four seats up on the band side and sat down. I plugged in my ear buds and started to hum to a random song and started to work on my homework.

I enjoyed the times where I can just be my self. I looked up and smiled, there are times where life doesn't seem that bad, but then crap happens and it reminds me that life hates me and wants me gone. By meaning this, a couple of football players came by to throw words at me. They kept walking as the chuckled at their words. I sighed and put my stuff up as the bell rang.

School went by horribly slow. I was so happy when the final bell rang signalling that school over. I packed my stuff up and walked towards my locker and put some books away. I yawned and walked out the front doors the parking lot half way empty by now.

I had some money with me so I stopped at a Diner and decided to order a drink. When I went to the front desk there was a cute guy with blonde white hair working. I slightly blushed because I was about to talk to this sexy man. "Hello! My name is Sam, but call me Sammy, how may I help you?" He asked in a German accent. "A large Dr. Pepper would be all thanks." I replied. He smiled and put it in the cash register. "$4.75." I gave him the money and he got a large cup and filled it up. He set it down and got a paper and wrote something on it. He handed me the cup with the paper "Have a good day!" He told me smiling. I smiled back, a real one, "You too." I told him.

I started to walk home when I remember the paper. I opened it up.

Call me ;) 427-173-9654 -Sammy

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Yay updates! Sorry guys. I lost internet and crap, but I'm back!!!!

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