"Wishes I made, regrets I suffer"
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It's been 2 weeks since I have met Shubham and asked for his help......but its been two weeks and he never contacted back.
Maybe Shubham doesn't trust me enough with his friend.
Maybe he has forgotten about me.
Maybe he is still too angry with me to listen to my apology.
Maybe he doesn't want to talk.
Maybe he doesn't care anymore.
Maybe he doesn't love me anymore.
Maybe he hates me.
Maybe I'm too late......!!
These thought just made me even more wretched than I was already feeling. My nagging conscious had had no ending.....there was just a voice behind my mind continuously reminding me
"you brought this upon yourself....."
My thoughts were turning a shade darker by every passing day. Each day I woke up with the hope that today might be the day when I might be able to find my peace...... everyday the thought that today might be better than yesterday and he might just call kept me going through each day but as the days were passing by I was finding my hopes, to which I hung like my life depended upon it, slipping through.
Maybe this is the divine's way of getting back for not respecting what I was gifted.....maybe I am to live with this guilt and emptiness all my life.
My gloomy aura did not go unnoticed by a lot of people especially Shivi and Hemu.....Shivi understood me inside out and knew I may not say anything to anyone but was killing me...... the pain of betrayal from my own brother who m I trusted my life with and the pain of losing someone who had started meaning life to me......when she could not take my RBF(Resting Bitch Face) attitude anymore she dragged me to somewhere where I never expected she would be taking me ever....
Temple
Shivi was never a kind who believed in "make a wish and it will come true" types like me. So I was a bit shocked when she took me there. So I asked
"Why are we here...?"
"you know I don't believe in all this much but I will tell you a secret- the night is darkest before dawn and if you are scared of the dark don't run from it just sit and close your eyes and think of HIM watching you and as you embrace that darkness you will never be scared of it anymore....I know you are hurting....just let HIM help you.....just close your eyes and Make A Wish" she said to me shrugging
"you really think HE will listen" I asked her doubtful.
"no harm trying....." she encouraged me.
I closed my eyes and thought back about all the moments I had spent with Shiven in past and wished to feel loved again even if its not ever lasting.
After being there at temple I was feeling a bit lite. I felt as if I was able to see a ray of hope.
Maybe I'm not that late
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A Mistaken Wish (#Wattys2016)
Fiksi UmumShe knew it was coming, she has prepared herself so many times for this..she knew he would leave and it won't last forever...all she didn't imagine was the excruciating pain, the perpetual agony she would be in after him going...!! "Ho...
