"In love distances are just a measure."
She
There are times in life when we witness a few things that we never believed before in our life. Something like that happened with me.
Since past few days I and Shiven both have been really busy deciding our collages.....due to his high percentage he didn't really had to struggle much for admission, he was almost accepted in all the colleges he applied for, he just had to choose the better one from the bunch. While I had given a competitive exam for law entrance and had to choose from the colleges I got admission in.....the pressure was huge as our decision now would decide how our future will be. A lot of decision were to be taken, a lot was at stake but among all the thoughts the only thought that troubled the most was me and Shiven apart.......when I fell in love I never thought that there would come a day that I have to be away from him or maybe I knew but never wanted to think of it but its rightly said- how much ever you might run reality will confront you eventually and so it was right in front of me...... our dreams were going to lead us miles apart. The thought of being apart from each other haunted him as much as it did me. In the last four years he had become the most inevitable part of my life which I did not wanted to change or loose..... I had opened myself to him and was extremely scared from the mere thought of loosing him. On the other hand he might not say a lot but I could see the same fear in his eyes. I remember talking to him about it as I was scared
"where will we be going from here, it won't be same anymore"
"I know", he said.
"I love you" I said in a mere whisper.
He looked towards me and maybe say the fear I was in. He cupped my face in his hand and said
"I don't know where will we be going from here but wherever that might me we will be together. Don't doubt us I love you and our love is strong enough to be not affected by distance and time. However far we might be I will always find you in the end. I love you and nothing is going to change that"
His words held so much sincerity that it drove all my doubts about us away but still the thought of being away from him made me really uncomfortable
I was looking at my cell phone waiting for his call. He has been in Delhi since last three days and I missed him really bad and so was waiting for his call as he would call me at this time. My phone rang and I answered it. I heard the voice of the most awaited person
"hey princess"
"hey"
"how is my love doing today" he asked adoringly
"I'm doing fine. Just missing you. Come back soon"
"I miss you too princess. I will be back soon" he assured me
"how is admission stuff going there" I asked him
"we will talk about it when I come back" he said, his voice told as if he was holding back something but I didn't wanted to pry because I knew he tells me everything. So I just let it go
"ohk.... so how have you been"
"I'm feeling perfectly good now after hearing your voice. You make my day princess"
"really now"
"yes, I would love to woken up by you every morning. Seeing your face hearing your voice just makes my day perfect. When I marry you, I will make you wake me up everyday"
"how are you so sure I'll marry you"
"you don't have choice love. You already have the best option available" he said arrogantly
"corky much, are we" I replied laughing and he joined in
After that his father called him for some work so he just wished me good night and left and I drifted off to sleep with his dreams
2 days later
Today he was returning from Delhi and we have planned to go out for walk in the evening. So I got ready and went to meet him. We went on a stroll together but from his behavior I could tell he wanted to tell me something but was holding back. He was just physically present with me but mentally was somewhere else I asked him what happened a few times but he just evaded the question by changing the topic. After not being able to see him so lost or long I confronted him.
"Tell me what's up with you. I know something is troubling you so spill it."
"I'm sorry I have been so lost the whole evening and you are right I have to tell you something"
"go on" I encouraged him
"I got admission in the college I wanted in Delhi and they want me to join after 10 days." He told me not sounding sure
I had been anticipating of time when I had to bid him goodbye I knew I won't be easy but now when he told me it was way worse than I thought. But when I saw him I knew I can't let him see me upset or he won't be able to make a decision.....this was a golden opportunity for him and I can't ruin it over some insecurity fear I had so I just covered my emotions as I didn't wanted to let him know what I was feeling because I knew it would have been selfish of me.
So I smiled and told him
"that's a great news. Why didn't you tell me earlier" I said in fake excitement
He was surprised from my reaction
"but are you not upset" he asked.
"why would I be. It's a great opportunity for you. I want you to make best of it" I said making my words sound convincing
"but it would mean I have to leave you behind here and go there alone" he said sounding upset
"but you are not leaving me behind...I don't have to be physically present there to be with you, I'm right here always with you" I said placing my hand over his heart
"I don't want to be so far away from you" for the first time I heard vulnerability in his voice.
"distance doesn't matter, you told me yourself remember" I reminded him being strong enough to encourage him.
"I love you" looking in my eyes he said.
"I love you too and its not going to change ever" I looked right back into his eyes and he just hugged me creating a moment to fight for.
I had always wanted to be hi strength, never his weakness and for that I would do anything, even sending him away from me if that's right thing for him. For me if you love someone you would do anything that is right for them even if it hurts you. Love is never selfish, it teaches you to think of someone else above yourself. Love teaches us the real meaning of sacrifice and selflessness and the following words of the bible are proven true again and again over the time-
"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes."
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